A writer a rapper a thinker a pleaser
A nigger a wigger a cracker a chink
I'm everything nothing everywhere now
I'll do it with a smile a frown and a wink
I'll talk and talk and everyone listens
But when things change I don't
An empath at heart but self-centered too
An oxymoronic fart

Everything's up and everything's down
The world's still going round
I'm the world's winner and loser
In my own right
Just listen, I need no crown

I love you I hate you
You disgust me
I praise you
Bitch bend over please
I'm thinking You're winking
Has more than just meaning
Now excuse me as I proceed

Everything's down and everything's up
Nobody's perfect we all fuck up
Mistakes get made
And plays get played
You just have to move on
Look to a new day

Dear me, stop being me
Go back to being who you think you want to be
Wait, that's wrong, but also, that's right
You make the choice cause I really can't decide
Would you just fucking make up your mind?
Rather than sitting thinking wasting my time?
One way or the other you're eventually fucked
So pick it now or later until then shut up

You reject your family now you reject yourself
You're a reject of rejects a reject can tell
But now you reflect to redo and relive
But no way, no one cares about what you think you give
You see yourself a giver but you look like a taker
Everyday you want to be real cause you feel faker
I guess I'll ramble to you later
Cause right now I'm talking to myself, later

5 parts bitter and 2 parts sweet
Sprinkle a smile and 3 parts meat
The recipe is for the annoyed human being
Or one way better, it's a recipe for me
Cause you fancy yourself a man
But you'll beg if you must
And you'd like to say it's love
But really you just wanna bust

A Wish

Everywhere I look there's a place that I wanna see
Everyone I see is someone I wanna be
Everyday I live, I live it waiting on you
I really wish it weren't true

My mind is a cage and you hold the fucking key
You should let me out but I don't think there's room for me
Everyday I spend, I spend it thinking of you
I really wish it weren't true

The liver leaking fools are the fools that I wanna be
Drinking everyday passing out in a fucking heap
Maybe through the haze I won't even think about you
I really wish that that's true

Gin and tonic, whiskey, rum and a shot of me
I'm puking out my words as I'm drinking without a fee
Even in the haze, I'm still stuck thinking of you
I really wish it weren't true



If you sing it to the rift in "(Can't Get My) Head Around You" it'll sound better, cause that's what I wrote it to.

No I Aint

Daddy didn't love me and mommy didn't care
But I guess they got to fucking cause I'm still standing here
A 200 month old fetus that slid from the ham's hock
With too many memories I've been trying hard to block
No more you, no more pain, no more zoned out fucking brain
No more mom no more dad but am I still sane

NO I AINT

Shouted my brain
NO I AINT

Cause I don't act plain
NO I AINT

Cause I recognize my pain
No I aint No I aint
But I'm gonna make it rain

I'm not original
I think my words are replayed
All my songs are similar
Cause all they are is pain
From my family to my girl probs it's all just the same
Just a moaning little whiner that gave up on praying

But NO I AINT

Imma do some shit about it
NO I AINT

Rather than moan about it
NO I AINT

I want to move past the pain
And get to the talking
That I do so much in vain

I may mock the world
But what's wrong is also right
Nothing's one or the other
It's a mix of both inside
I Hate it and Love it and Approve my Denial
You should write this shit down, I want it on my file

Daddy Figure Bitch

Fuck the trauma from the mama and the daddy figure bitch
I'm an orphan in my own right, no one raised me for shit
That's right
I reject my parents
They treated me like shit cause it's their show

They didn't get it though

Yea so fuck the trauma
Fuck my mama
Fuck my daddy and his dick
Don't care where I came from
They treated me like shit
So what I'm here cause you guys could get off
I was the fastest swimmer there and my life's your fault
The excuse he's your father never made any sense
Cause just cause I came from him doesn't make me his
You gave me this life but it's mine to live
So don't treat it like yours, but you already did

Fuck the trauma from the mama and the daddy figure bitch
I'm an orphan in my own right, no one raised me for shit
No one raised me for shit
No one raised me for shit
No one raised me for shit

I don't enjoy this clan only a quarter could I like
Mostly obnoxious snobs living in their own mind
Too self-absorbed to notice others here
It's cause of that shit that people shed tears
I don't belong with them I belong as myself
Hunger for the freedom from the curse and what else
Growing up they were my idols
But the cracks in the metal grew when they got left idle

Fuck the trauma from the mama and the daddy figure bitch
I'm an orphan
I'm an orphan
No one raised me for shit

Growing up preppy I was trained to be a drone
I kinda went on to build my thoughts on my own
Raised to be Catholic and follow the true god
I disagreed with daddy so I guess I dissed god
After that moment I was worth less than dirt
But somehow I managed to keep some self-worth
From K-6 I was forced in a mold
But I broke the machine and burst out feeling old
Taught being different is wrong, you gotta look the same
Same here, same clothes, same thoughts, same faith

Fuck the trauma from the mama and the daddy figure bitch
I'm agnostic and proud and tired of this shit
I philosophize life and I live to live
But I didn't live for fuckers like my daddy figure bitch

Where do I go?

I'm on my way but where do I go?
I kinda really just wanna get to the show
Gonna blaze that haze and get on the way
Gonna party all night and party all day
That's the plan if I ever make it to it
Gonna make t-shirts and get loaded? I knew it
Gonna chase that fame from inside my cage
Gonna keep running on my treadmill phase

Where do I go?
Yea, Where do I go
Heh, I don't know bro
...
Just where do I go

Imma be chasing fame but I don't know why
Cause me and fame, we don't see eye to eye
I haven't even dropped my first mix tape
But this shit's gonna be banging cause I'm on my way
Gonna ride the coaster up and ride a turtle down
Gonna live days like my last and upturn my frown
Gonna teach the world that I'm a fucked up fiend
That's too busy smiling to forget his team

But...
Yea but...
Where do I go?
Yea, Where do I go
Heh, I don't know bro
...
Just where do I go

I'll be hanging for every girl I meet
So I gotta meet some really quality meat
A chick that won't leave but stay by my side
But won't enable me my delusions and pride
I gotta move forward cause the past is the past
I'll just look to the present cause the future comes last
Lookin on to the days without my dad
And living with my monsters and my mom that's just mad

(x2)
Where do I go?
Yea, Where do I go
Heh, I don't know bro
...
Just where do I go

(Cut)

(Chorus)
This zen marks the end of the dead depression
The regressive dead end that I lived in
Big words mean nothing but I'll use them anyways
Meditate masturbate where's the end then

Sing a song so sing along
Remind me lines don't get them wrong
Don't forget to light the bong
Pass it as she hits the dong
Long Dong Ding Wrong
Sing sing sing along
Just remember little lizard
Remember where you came from

(Chorus)

With nowhere to go I'll dig a new hole
I'll go to china if i keep this up
The shovel bleeds as it's blade breaks
The dirt's thirst is gone, what luck
I gotta admit though, I fucked up
Goodbye for now, good luck
I blame you and me for this rut
But I blame me for being a nut

(Chorus)