I've made my bed
But I won't sleep tonight
Or any night for that matter
The voices in my head
Won't shut the fuck up
You should hear their witty banter
The whispers the tickles the grins and the feels
The faces the races the demons revealed
No angel in sight
But no angel for me
Just a pig pile of drugs
And a big bag of weed
And a mind so deranged it's more like a labyrinth
With it's melancholic moods
I'm bad and fantastic
I'm bad at this art
But Imma keep trying
So my will will go on
While I'm slowly dying

Just a Kid

I gotta learn girls but Imma do that alone
Cause the advice that I'm getting is worse than my phone
Samsung's ain't shit but bricks made of plastic
And my calm is shit like rubber bands are elastic
To be honest I'm feeling fantastic
Caffeine's like water and the weeds like grass
And my plantation is fruitful for now I guess
But I still gotta learn how to make a pass

I don't wanna be the 40 year old virgin
Or even worse 18
I wanna hop in bed
With the brand new love
When I meet her or she meets me
I wanna run the streets like I run my dick
Long and hard and off
I'm the kid that's gonna fuck the world up the ass
But right now I can't get off

This kid be crazy, what's he on coke?
Cause he's running his mouth and he's making bad pokes
And he asks for a date before he has the number
But he's a fucking kid so forget it
Or remember
This inexperienced fool is gonna fuck the world
But first he needs to know the art
So the grasshopper's hopping
And this kid is hoping
That he can play the part
He auditioned and failed
But the callback still came
But he wasn't gonna be the bitch
So he says fuck you
And suck my dick
But then he goes on to bitch

I don't wanna be the 40 year old virgin
Or even worse 18
I wanna hop in bed
With the brand new love
When I meet her or she meets me
I wanna run the streets like I run my dick
Long and hard and off
I'm the kid that's gonna fuck the world up the ass
But right now I can't get off

Look, I'm a potty mouthed pansy

That's gonna keep ranting
And my mind's so full of pot
It's also full of shit
So I'm a shithead
And I'm gonna watch the world rot
Now just take these pills
Now smile real wide
Now do your job and don't hide
Cause society's like a court
Lookin up as they look down
And the verdict's really poor
And they're lookin to make you a clown
Who's better than the worst
I'm bad at being good
Not me, Not I, Nor he
No good
This kid's
Done done
The worst
He could

I don't wanna be the 40 year old virgin
Or even worse 18
I wanna hop in bed
With the brand new love
When I meet her or she meets me
I wanna run the streets like I run my dick
Long and hard and off
I'm gonna fuck the world up the ass
First I need to make a pass
And I need to get off
But then again

I'm just a kid
But Imma dream big
I'm just a kid
But Imma do this shit
I'm just a kid
With a mind immature
I'm just a kid
And that's it
World

Imaginary Friends

Psychotic, diabolic, creatures of my mind

My imaginary friends are coming on time

The claws the paws the pale pearly skin

They creep and crawl and see my flaws

My flaws are them so I see them pretty clear

But the true question is are they really there

Are they really real or are the just figments

The delusions that made revolutions for life

My mistakes and accomplishments

Bleed into one

But when I face them I just fucking run

Hello there little guy

What's your name

Pain?

What is this, a fucking game

Or is it hate

Or is it fear

Or is it life

You can be my tears

Just follow me around

And tell me what to do

I may disagree

But I bow to you

My imaginary friend

That only I could see

Cause no one else knows you

Except me

The drugs that I'm on have left me wondering

Where the fuck'd you come from

Come on I'm wondering

Who the fuck do you think you are

To just walk in my mind

And lower the bar

And take what I want

And not give it back
Cause honestly I feel that you're holding me back

My standard's degraded

As your strength goes on

And you're getting stronger

With every rip of the bong

And every hit of acid

And every cap of E

Every shrum cap I've taken

And lines of kitty

And to top it off

I still got my blunt

Same as my knife

No physical harm done

Hey there little shit

What's your fucking name

Pain?

What is this, a fucking game

Or is it hate

Or is it fear

Or is it life

You could be my tears

You could follow me around

And tell me what to do

I will disagree

But I still bow to you

My imaginary friend

That only I could see

Cause no one else knows you

Except me

Except me

So why don't I just throw out my drugs

Cause I could always buy new ones

It's what I do for fun

Not concerned with my mind

Just having a good time

Telling people I'm fine

But really I'm not

So I'm steeped in smoke

And could use a line of coke

If just to keep my eyes open for a minute or two

I'll watch my brain rot

With the popcorn in hand

And the 3D glasses gleaming

Just like my old grin

In a world of sin

I'm the new prophet

The god of the dirty

And defiled

Don't stop it

Just keep going where your going

Dig the whole deeper

And wider

And darker

And the walls are getting higher

And your shovel broke

You'll have to dig out with your hands

After all dude, you're your number one fan

Hey you piece of shit

What did you do to my brain?

Pain?

What is this, a fucking game

Or is it hate

Or is it fear

Or is it life

You won't be my tears

Don't follow me around

And tell me what to do

I will disagree

And I won't bow to you

My imaginary friend

That only I could see

Cause no one else knows you

Except me
And I outgrew you
And I outgrew you

KemHed

The chemicals in my brain
Have left me insane
While the bong rips get melodic
This wackass rapper
Is losing sight faster
Than he can sneak hits from the chronic

It's THC and LSD and MDMAmzing
The drugs the tugs the thoughts the feels
The lights blinking every morning
But every morning I'm mourning
And every thoughts' a pain
So I'll pull the trigger now
And empty out my brain
Cause the chemicals have fucked me
As much as I fucked myself
So I guess I'm a homo
Cause the chemhead is horny
And I just fucked myself again
There's jizz on the floor
On the ceiling
In the fan
And my head's joining soon
Just watch
I'm done being dead

The nation's got us high
Pushing speed everywhere
The prescriptions are real rare
Compared to the caffeine wares
And the nicotine
And coke
Oh wait the last's illegal
But the big city's got it
And it's not just for the regal
So everyone's an addict
And lookin for a feel
Now to the next verse
And lets get fuckin real

I may say fuck a lot
It's not just cause I'm honest
It's cause I really want to fuck
And I'm addicted to the thoughts
And
I'm addicted to the speed
That they peddle in the stores
And I got a real need
To find myself a whore
I shouldn't call them that
Or preferably her
But my chance just may be up
Cause she could be leaving soon
Moving to a new place
While I sit and swoon
And swing as I'm blazed
Just from the withdrawal
Of my heart
And my head
And the chems
So I grovel

This chemhead's
Braindead
But he's in college
Or in high school and both
Cause he's enrolled to follow
A path that he wants
Cause he wants to make chems
That don't fuck you as hard
But help you at best
That would never be sold
In a store or on the street
He's making it for him
And so that's his defeat

Flood Doors

For worse and less better
I'll get better with these words
I got a new flow
And opened my flood doors
So as the body hits the floor
And the bass joins at that
I'm getting high off life
And that's a fucking fact

People are scary you don't know what they want
The plot is big bigger than the personal thoughts
The mind is a cage that looks like a door
But this shit is a maze cause you're stuck
Good lord
But who the fuck gives
Imma be the shy guy
But I'll open up my mind
For the people that pry
Cause I let them walk in
As I stand still
The flood doors are open
Now lets get real

For worse and less better
I'll get better with these words
The flood doors are open
And so are my shores
So as the body settles
And the jaws hit the floor
I'm getting high off life
No need to say more

Inky pinky ponkey
Daddy was a donkey
But the donkey died bitch
So stop crying ya honky
People die, so what?
This life of mine's fucked up
But the mistakes make me who I am today
I'm still fucked up
I'm damaged goods
But am I good?
I guess I'm damaged bads
That sounds kinda sad
But whatever floats my boat
Cause it's my life not yours
Only I can shed my tears
So just kick it and listen
If not from love then from fear

For worse and less better
These words'll get better
These words'll get better
These words'll get better
For worse and less better
These words'll get better
These words'll get better
For worse and less better
These words'll get better
Or else

End Phase

My back may be turned but my thoughts are still on you
The lies that I tell I only wish were true
But I guess that cupid's made me his fool
Cause my muse and my motivator had to be you
Of all the masks
I thought yours the best
So I'm flushed
As you blush
And I stumble through the test
The smoke clears and my tears clear up
Cause in the end
I still fucked up

You cracked the shell
And fried me well
But am I good
It's hard to tell
These rhymes just spin
All on the page
Right now I guess
It's my end phase
My end phase
Just one taste
Then I'll drift away

Wifting wafting shifting shatting
Lifting up my spirits
Just to watch me fall
As I float to the top
I hit my head in the fan
And I'm dead on the floor
Til' the morning begins
I lay this body to eternal rest
Say your prayers now
Cause the longer the less
More waiting less love
Less love and less life
I guess that this test
Is to find my true wife
And find where to go
And where to call home
Cause I walk this lonely road
And a world to roam
Cause home's not here
At least not right now
I need the love that I lost
And new love to be found
But those things are just thoughts
With you at the center
Now stop blushing
And to my story re-enter

You cracked the shell
And fried me well
But am I good
It's hard to tell
These rhymes just spin
All on the page
Right now I guess
It's my end phase
My end phase
Just one taste
Then I'll drift away

The rooster's call couldn't wake me up
I needed a monster and more just to get me up
And a thought and a smile just to lift me up
And a nudie nice picture to get me off
Cause my life's just improving and getting better
But I'm still stuck whining and moaning and mutter
My mind can't really take this clutter
Or the fact that life's just gotten duller
Or the fact that I can't still move on
I can't even talk to girls right now
Well I can but not the ones I want to
I really really want to

You cracked the shell
And fried me well
But am I good
I can't quite tell
These rhymes just spin
As does my head
Right now I guess
That my life's dead
My life's dead
The end phase here
My life's dread

Everyday I'll leave my cage
Shave my wings
And brush my braids
Tie my leash
Straight jacket please

Someone break me free (x8)

Feeling all nice and tight
I think I'll get a bite
Molly and Lucy
They ate with me

Chains are tied and tight (x8)

God, John, and Jesus too
The twelve apostles
They're all just jews
But then why does it matter now

Religion feels so wrong (x8)

Waking up with thoughts divine
I leave my cage a weathered mine
Any good just left with me
I'll leave the shell for all to see

Someone break me free (x19)

Nowhere will I roam


So I think this is a nice little parody of Sliver by Nirvana. I found I listen to them a lot when I'm in a depressed moany mood, Kurt Cobain's tone of voice is so easy for me to sympathize with, and even though I probably know shit about what he actually meant to say with his words I feel like I understand them completely too, which just sounds absurd. I love Nirvana just because they make such bouncy and upbeat music, Krist Novoselic is like a bass god to me, and then it's strangely complimented by Kurt's depressed moans. It's like Kurt expressed life as a sigh, something you just brush off because it's irrelevant.