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So Bandgeek, in case you're reading this. I probably already know the answer that you're going to give me. And this isn't cliche but stolen from Blue, where I've been getting all "my" good ideas from recently. But I figure, might as well ask for the heck of it. I was planning to ask today anyways.

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Will you go out with me Bandgeek?



And in case it wasn't clear, the expected answer is no cause you said you see relationships as drama. Also cause you said you enjoy being single. Also cause I'd imagine I really creep you out.

I Just Love Other Cultures, Especially Their Food

So for those that know me, you probably think I'm fat. Well I am, and I'm really gluttonous when it comes to cultural food. I just love other cultures, and it's not just because I'm white. And the thing is, the most I know about other cultures is sadly their food. Like when I'm hanging with my friends if they aren't white I tend to ask them about the things that their parents do cause of their race. For example, one of my hispanic friend's mother believes in ghosts and can get scared on Dia De Las Muertos (Day of the Dead) because of something that happened one of the years. But anyways, I just love cultural food. I've tried Bengali food, really want to try Mongolian BBQ, love hot pot, and love going to one of my friends house cause my favorite salad is Pico De Gallo. I could talk for paragraphs about all the food I eat that isn't American "Culture." I live right by a Thai restaurant that got me addicted to curry. And cause a lot of the cultural foods that I eat are from Latin America and Asia, I got a really big taste for spicy. Trust me, you don't want to see me by any Chorizo and be told I can eat it. Because I will take you seriously, take the plate, platter, whatever's in it, and leave.

What the Fuck is Intelligence, And Why Does It Have To Matter So Much

So yea, I just hate how people compare themselves to each other with who is smarter. WHO THE FUCK CARES. Like I'll occasionally accidentally talk down to people, but I apologize. It's those people that talk about street smarts, book smarts, that we could really use less of. For example, one of my friends practically every conversation I have with him is about whether he actually is smart or not. Like he'll go on about him getting straight A's in all his normal classes, and how he takes IQ tests all the time. That doesn't mean shit to me, and probably won't mean all that much to job interviewers. Seriously, think about it. Which would you rather have, some guy that all he ever talks about is that he's not the idiot everyone thinks he is and that he's actually quite smart, or someone that has an actually personality and is of average intelligence. Also there's the fact that IQ tests can be cheated on, and grades are easier than you'd think to get up. And then I have those other friends that think just cause of the class they're in, Hrrmm my class, that they're smart. I can name quite a few that are dumb as shit. Like did you know that Albert Einstein dropped out of school, he never finished. But we hail him as one of the smartest people to walk this fucked up planet. And then those people that get mad at being called stupid, well as far as I'm concerned they can go suck my fucking dick. I call them stupid not just cause they at least act and seem like it but also because they care so much about whether they actually are. Like I realize some people really care about this, so I know how to get on their nerves when they piss me off. Just like how I know to call a homophobic person gay.

This Time My Brother's the One That Pissed Me Off

So lately my brother and I get along pretty well. But today he's just pissed me off. Not only did he not go to work. But I go down to a basement that I happen to use also and find a giant fuckin' mess and one of his friends sleeping down there. Now I can excuse the friend cause he's homeless. BUT THE MESS!, OH MY FUCKING GOD HE'S CLEANING UP THAT MESS!! It just pisses me off. Cause I practically live down there, and only sleep in my room. That means I don't like it when he trashes it. What I do is while he's at work I hang out down there, do my weights down there. And I actually sleep down there because I got nothing else better to do. But I can't do that right now cause he couldn't tell me. If he did I would have made plans. AW FUCK!

I'm Just Feeling Spiritual Lately, and I'm Not Talking Religion

So I have really been feeling the mysticallity in me going up, and I'm not saying I've been high lately. No, I've had many dreams that seemed like premonitions. And as I said earlier, I've also had a image, my first. And what I really want to do is learn how to read auras. And for those of you who are noobs to this Aura is the energy that people radiate, and  chi is the energy that flows within. I'm not getting this from any video game for the record. So anyways, also you can read peoples personality to learn about their personality. Pretty much if their aura's white, they're the super innocent type, and if their aura's black, they've been evil since birth. And your aura ends up being affected by who they're near, and what they wear. If you have a orangy, yellowish, red aura you have anger issues. Green is envious. These colors have actually been recorded to correspond with emotions. And then if you wear and eat red a lot, your temperment gets altered slowly toward being more raging. But having the ability to read an aura makes it easier for you to tell when they're lying. It would just be so cool to be able to see. Oh and Chi is also called Chakra. An aura's color is defined by how open your chi paths are.

My Mind's Eye, I Can't Believe I'm Starting To Preach This Stuff

So you know the whole entire 6th sense and inner eye crap that psychics like to shove down our throats. Well the thing is it's not totally fake. It's because a lot of this is influenced by intelligence, and as I've heard it also get's amplified by marijuana. Did you know that in China they actually go looking for kids with telekinetic (can move things with their mind), prophetic (can see the future), and telepathic (can read other minds) abilities. That's because Asia is at a higher stage in evolution. And they've actually found people with those abilities. Like the whole entire stereotype about Asians being smarter isn't totally false. Even though the first man appeared in Africa, more evolution has gone on in Asia. That's because in Asia it was able to flourish with the fact that not every country is at war 24/7 and has starving children. And also, you know how when you're walking you get a feeling that you're being watched, that is the actual sixth sense. Although for some people it's just paranoia. But I have been able to tell when people are watching me sometimes. And I have somewhat of a psychic ability. Most people brush dreams off but what happens in my dreams, if realistic enough, I believe them. I also take stuff that happens in the ones I can remember as warnings of bad and good to come. And I have had dreams that have come true, you know the whole entire Deja Vu shit, about 25 times at this point. Also,  when I wake up sometimes an image appear in my head, like I actually saw a Facebook conversation that never happened yet. But I didn't have enough time to scan it and know when it supposedly happened. I'm pretty sure it said it happened today. And I'm never going to try to move stuff with my mind. But once or twice I thought I had some telepathic ability, because once I was pretty sure I shouted WHAT! in my head and my dad heard, cause he responded. And other things influence it. Like meditation. I don't do it a lot cause I don't know the right method, but calm amplifies your abilities. Also I don't know if I've said this on here before but caffeine. Now I'm not saying that it gives you dreams that'll come true, just some pretty nice dreams. I mean it practically forces your sub-conscious to dream. What you do is you drink an energy drink (I prefer AMPS, or Monsters) or a can of Dr. Pepper (something along those lines) before you go to sleep. Because it takes about 10 to 30 minutes to take effect depending on what's in your stomach it shouldn't keep you up if it's right before bed. And then, while sleeping you're mind is woken up, but not to the point of reawakening the whole body because of the caffeine. And I have had some of the coolest and craziest dreams cause of it. But Tarot cards are just a load of shit. I believe in luck, partially cause I'm a luck bastard. But Tarot cards are too random.  

Due to the giant size of this post I will have multiple pictures to make up for it. It's just something I feel somewhat strongly about.

The meditation picture is from Buddhist culture showing the 9 pathways of enlightenment or something. And if you guys watched Avatar the Last Airbender the 9 things that Aang had to open up are based off of that.

Facing Your Fears, Yes I Realize The Cheeziness

Everybody is scared of something, no one is without fear, it's just some can hide it better than others. I personally can do it somewhat well because I don't fear physical things as much as I do the emotional shit. Like the dark it's nothing. Now I'll admit that after watching a horror movie I'm not initially scared, I get scared around 3 hours afterwards where it's had time to sink in. And then that will only last a day or two. But plain old darkness can't do it. I have to hear some loud abrupt noise and I won't jump, I'll punch. Once on Halloween I punched a guy right in the chest for scaring me in a Haunted House, and it wasn't intentional my hand just shot out. I would literally let a wolf that I've never seen before walk up to me, and if it snarls I will wrestle it for a while until I get a good chance to hit it in the face with my elbow. And no, that's not me being my cocky, snide self. I tend to not care that much about getting physically hurt, I do the wacky and crazy stunts and pain is more mental than physical. And also I got a good enough muscle mass to beat the shit out of some dumb mutt that's decided it's going to try to eat my face, and I also know some basic techniques to fighting. But the emotional stuff can really get me. Things like people dying no, I mean like talking to the girl I like. I can't just walk up to her, I need to see someone else down there and then I walk up. Of course since school's out I can't do that but oh well. What I'm really scared of right now is either fucking up with her somehow, or asking her out and getting told what I'd expect, no. Now that would be my worst fears come true. God I hate angst.