Viva La Quince

So one of the girls I like is having a quinceanera in June and my friend asked me if I got invited because she invited a couple of guys on her bus and was pushed to invite him. So then he calls me up and asks and I said I wish I did get invited. She didn't want to invite him, I know that much. But then I wonder though, I'd be one of 3 or 4 white guys there while everyone else is Hispanic. I'd get scared. And we got to talking because I would honestly want to go and just to mess around. You know, gangnam style and twerk against a wall. He got invited to be a dancer on her court, something I'd feel honored to be. We were talking about the other girl I like, who he thinks I'm only second to another guy for her. She hasn't had a quinceanera yet and I hope I get invited to that one. It would be nice until I start dancing. If I ended up dancing with her I'd totally screw up though. I've never danced with a girl before, and barely hug people, and especially at something as momentous as a quinceanera I would screw up. Knowing me I'd probably accidentally grab her ass and get kicked in the nuts and then slapped. I'd love to be invited though, it'd feel special to me. I doubt that I'd get to dance with her though, I mean I feel close to the one I've loved for a while and my friend sees it the same way. But when I talk to her I get reminded that she and I aren't going anywhere. But oh well, I'll see how things play out.

OBEEZY!

When asked what political party I belong to I answer with demoplican or something along those lines. Personally this year I'd prefer Obama to Romney just because although Obama promised a whole bunch of shit he did manage to show some progress. I don't want to hear that shit that he raised gas prices. I got told to look them up by someone, even though I know the prices that I had to pay last year, and found that it was around 4 dollars, like I'd said to people. Then about a month prior to the election prices all of a sudden drop to 1.50 a gallon. So... technically on average Obama has improved the gas prices comparing the first year to this year. I just think with all that Romney has for a reputation he doesn't belong even in the office of governor. So I'm really glad that Obama won this election. Because with how well he did with Massachusetts Romney would have destroyed the economy in 2 years and we'd have a giant rise to crime to go with it. Also his plan to create jobs is bullshit. You don't say OH! I know, let the rich people keep more of their money, that'll obviously make them hire in the U.S. It is a load of shit and people know it. Obama offers an incentive, which makes more sense. Then the issue of abortion, we might as well leave it. I have a problem with the use of it just because you don't want to have a kid, but not with the use of it for rape babies and those unprepared to have a kid. Also, if they get rid of abortions then they need to distribute condoms for free or something so that we don't have a skyrocketing population. A skyrocketing population destroys an economy because there's a rate of population growth that doesn't fit with the rate of job creation. Also it would create a rise to crime that results in more deaths. There would be backwater abortions going on, not like there aren't right now but even more, done by shady doctors without a license or a revoked one. When you take something away, you need to usher in something else to replace it but with less considerable consequence if it's wide enough used to raise an issue. Prohibition failed because alcohol was a popular form of enjoyment and what are they going to do without it? THEY DIDN'T KNOW. And because they didn't have anything to fill the void left they eventually repealed it. With stuff like marijuana though it wasn't as popularly used when it was illegalized so there were no repercussions to face at the time. There is so much ethics in politics. I mentioned it to my dad how getting rid of abortion meant promoting condoms or other forms of birth control and when I explained it he said politicians don't think of that stuff. Of course they fucking do, they need to think of the consequences just as much as they need to the benefits. But just because Obama is president we can't blame everything on him. The president doesn't hold all that much power, he makes up 1/3 of our government and can get told off by the other 2 thirds. He just holds the most influence because while he is the only power in the Executive Branch the legislative is controlled by 535 people and the Supreme Court by 9 or something ( don't remember how many justices ).

Ganja Gangsta

Pussy Pussy Marijuana

Nigga Nigga smoke that ganja

Make it light, take a hit
Suck it in, pass that shit

Buy a pound, grab an ounce

Your bitch's face just got doused

Grind it up roll it down

Light the joint and go to town
Hit it once, hit it twice
This white nigga's feeling nice
Live it up with the gang
Don't stop keep doing your thang
Get a bowl and start to roll
Take what you want like a crow
See a bitch and pull up real slow
Slap dat ass cause we all know
You get what you want when you want
If you don't you're in that jont
Lighting weed everyday
Smoking shit everyway

And the hoes said
Pussy Pussy Marijuana
Nigga Nigga smoke that ganja
Make it light, Take a hit
Suck it in, Pass that shit

Trying out the brand new bong
Lighting up while you rap this song
Packing it with no regrets
While your damn slut is getting wet
Stick the joint in her mouth
She sucks in and then goes south
Busy pulling in that smoke
Every second take a toke
Bitch comes up ready to go
Get in the car and fuck that hoe

Rolling round the big town
Turned that frown upside down
Bitch we be hotboxing that shit
While yo bitch is busy taking licks
Windows up, A.C. down
Smiling big like you wear a crown
Open the door and the smoke pours out
Bitch that's what I'm talking about


So the hoe said
Pussy Pussy Marijuana
Nigga Nigga smoke that ganja
Make it light, Take a hit
Suck it in, Pass that shit

So I was bored and decided to write a rap about a couple of the different ways to smoke. I mentioned a whore also, but that was to just add it. This obviously shows though that I have an ability that I can't harness to truly express myself. 

I'm Still In Lalaland

If there's one thing I have a problem with it's getting over a girl. Even though my pre-date failure talks to me almost daily, the thing that always makes me hyper and insane and happy as fuck is talking to the girl that I was the bitch of. She just makes my heart flutter because I'm in love. I know she doesn't procure the same feelings, but I wish she'd come around eventually. I talk to my friends, and all I can say is just watch. Senior year she'll ask me out or something, or I'll grow balls and ask her out because I think she'll get into a special program in Virginia that is inter-school and she says yes. I can honestly imagine that happening because we've clicked a lot, same with me and the other girl. I really need to work on flirting with her though, there's some stuff I can't say to her because I like her because it's highly inappropriate but my other friends will and she flirts. Atleast I think she's flirting, I don't know for sure. But I do know my feelings for her will never go away, I just love her. That's it in simplicity, I Love Her. I can't explain why, and it's not just because she has a rocking bod. I can't express it in words, I feel drawn to her and her majesty. I just know it's not just because of her looks. She has no butt. She has boobs, but didn't when I started liking her. To me she's a work of art, but I got some friends that say her beauty is average. I could babble all day trying to figure out what it is about her that pulls me in.

Do You Hate Him Too?

So yesterday I was at the store with my friend and I was messing around and making fun of my retarded dad.  Then it hit me, I could actually become a comedian with him as my act. Being a comedian has been a nice dream of mine that I never pursued much because of what it brings along. Friends of comedians HATE THEM. It's because they get made fun of by the comedian on stage and it gets embarrassing. I personally wouldn't mind because I enjoy a nice laugh at myself, but most people have ego problems. But then it got me to thinking because we were talking about how our futures would play out and I said I'd probably be too used to a relaxed lifestyle when I enter college and have budgeting problems and need to do other stuff for money besides have a job. Then I realized, I could be a late night comedian while I worked my way through college. Then, hopefully, I get picked up by Comedy Central or something and they give me a program or a comedy special. I, like lots of comedians, would spend most of my specials talking about my past. The first special would be called "Do You Hate Him Too?" to mock my dad, something I have a talent for. My next special would be "I Need To Be A Bitch" talking about my girl problems and how I literally become the bitch of the girl I like, so far none have tried to take advantage of it. Then I thought of another one I could do, and it hit me, the jewel of it, the funniest one I could think of, "Snapbacks and Swagfags". It'd be where I talk about my self-discovery and this blog, and how I'm a white rapper and shit. A.K.A. stuff that makes people actually lose their asses when they laugh. I mean, I look like a poser the way I dress right now. But trust me, I'm anything but, and I don't care whether people in real life believe it or not. And I'd do tours for the military also, with a small fee. Just like you pay for me to fly out, I'll even ship out with the troops, and I get some walk around money for every venue based off of weekly. I'd stay at the base and everything. I'd be doing the, "Do You Hate Him Too?" routine to remind the troops they have fathers that were actually good parents and worth fighting for. But then, what would I actually do as an adult? Well I'd be either a comedian, some type of engineer or inventor, or have a military career. My "rapping" isn't going anywhere, I know that much. But it would be chill as fuck if I could be all three plus an underground rapper.

Working On Rapping To A Beat

So I've been trying to move out of A Capella and onto freestyling to beats. I have the instrumentals from Ill Mind Of Hopsin V and Reefer Madness but I stumble in my words. Most of the time when I rap it's in my head or out loud quietly where people can't hear. I almost never have a beat to do it to either and it's just my natural rhythm. But I decided I'd try to freestyle to a beat, which I've failed at stumbling all the way. With Ill Mind V I had a good start, but it failed fast.

What I had so far.
I hate life, My head, It feels dead
I just wanna go home, lay down, go to bed
Don't wake up the next fucking morning
You bitches won't here none of my snoring

The only problem is that I can't catch the natural flow the way rappers do. One thing that's made me wonder a lot is how do rappers normally write their music. Do they prewrite it and then bust it to a beat. Or do they make the beat and listen to it a lot to get it in their head, and then write music to go with the flow. But when I tried I stumbled after a while and had to keep restarting. It's been a while since I've actually rapped out loud where I could here myself though. It's going to take a lot to move me out of my damn slump that I'm stuck in.

Nothing Good Ever Lasts Me

I guess one thing does, Blue. A friend I can always count on to be there for me and listen to me. But right now I'm in a slight depression, not a serious one. My biggest problem in this world isn't my weight, it's not hygiene, not my appearance, not grades. Nooooo, my biggest problem is girls. I got told she liked some other guy that asked her out yesterday. I'm chill with it, I mean like seriously, IT WAS PREDATING. I didn't even have a real relationship, just a test. But those 3 days were like a fucking dream for me. I didn't jack off for those days either, 4 days total. I don't need to when I have a girlfriend that I like. It's a horrible trade-off I suffer though. 2 days of happiness bring me a week or two of depression. I guess it's just the way my life works. But today and yesterday haven't been my day anyways. I barely ever have "my day" though. When I do though, it's followed with a giant backlash. I honestly scared myself though. My face doesn't show any emotion when I'm at home unless it's laughing. I don't even laugh aloud. All that happened when I got told was well nothing, I mean after a while my chest started hurting, but my face was blank. I was just like, what the hell just happened but I don't give a fuck anyways. But my biggest problem is girls for a reason. I honestly think I have a good chance with girls, I just have my own standard. It's only one, but it's a serious one. I HAVE TO ACTUALLY LIKE THEM. I'm not one of those guys that could bare to just date a random girl that I think is hot. If a girl tells me she likes me, I won't do anything about it. I won't go out with her. Well I might, but it depends on if I actually like them like that. I hang with guys that will literally go out with a girl just for ass and boobs though. With girls there are 3 paths they can go down after we become "friends". The reason I say friend in "" is because the word friends implies a certain bond while most of the time it's an acquaintance. But after acquaintance it's either close friend, serious love interest, or friend that I occasionally get a minor crush on. It's normally the third one though. Every year I have one serious crush, I'm pretty sure this whole year the only girl I'll think of that makes my heart swoon will be the one I just finished predating. And right now there are 2 girls that are close friends with me. But seriously though, my love life is in shambles. I'll probably stay a girless virgin with no one to like me the way I like them until I'm 40 years old.