Stay Strapped

Track 1: Alan's In Wonderland

I'm not good at putting my words into words
This shit was rehearsed
Contorted and edited to be prophetic
Pathetic, synthetic
Rehearsed these verses as I write more
Rehearsed these verses as my thoughts get worse
Rehearsed these verses to rehearse

Reverse the hearse as death comes knocking at the door
Let time stand still and begging for more
Reap a reward and salute the soldiers
While they make their way up the hill with that bigass boulder
Look, life's only a game if you make it
Got these rules that I didn't set
Just a kid tryna make it
Go through school cause there's nothing else to do
Got that artistic talent stifled out by a fool
Shit man, I could be an artist
Got my sketches here, but oh look there's college
The books beckon me, but I'd rather sit at home
Writing out lyrics and working on my own

This kid's just a kid
He uses big boy words but his shoes don't fit
My mind's made up
Too stubborn to budge
Sorry if I'm an ass
That shit's just a phase, it'll pass
I'm just done with this game
I didn't wanna play it anyways
But I'm forced to roll the dice
Will I ever pass go
No, no one knows

Disfigured and poetically justified
But the bitch's hands ain't in the air
I aspire to move mountains
To hide the face of despair
The mental hospital in my head has a diagnosis
Endured trauma and here's a prognosis
He's gonna go on to moan and groan
But he's gonna still smile when he's not alone
When he's in the loony bin strapped up like a G
His incoherent babble is making sense to me
Conspiracy syndrome treated like a disability
But he keeps on going despite the hospitality

Look, you been hurt before?
That's chill, me too, leave it at the door
This an airplane ride, so, no baggage
Just carry on with what you were doing before
I'll take you on a date
Romanticize you on your way
Make you mine, not to objectify
That's just how I play this game
Take it from me, I don't know what I"m doing
You probably know more than me
But no more with that, try and live in the moment
Forget the past, be free

I don't know you well, I'd like to change that
Cause you sure seem swell
In my mind you're phat
Yea with a ph, f the other one
Even if you were, I wouldn't be done
I'd call you a ten but you're far from basic
Unique, no T.V. or games
Never seen a girl like that before
It's Such a shame

In case you were wondering I'm a sapiosexual
With aesthetic thoughts but the mind's the target
Like to pick your brain with a toothpick
Just an hors d'oeuvre
Conversation's the meal
But what's for dessert?
Just don't desert me like I've been there before
Be up front with me, been lied to before
If you're not interested and just tryna be nice
Lemme know now, so I can get on with life

A king among kings, but what's a king without a queen
A king without the luxuries that made him a fiend
No more subjects, no more tributes for me
This king's a slave now, but that's what I was born to be
Started from the bottom and I found my own top
But then I fucked up and the progress stopped
I fell down the ladder and I'm back in the hole
But still glutton like fuck and I'll never be full
It's the living corruption and consumption of soul
It's the B LAZ E attitude that describes me whole
It's the I'm fine where I'm at but I'll bitch about it
Too much effort to fix, Too much effort to change
Too much effort to live, Too much effort for brains
Too much effort for me cause why should I work
I'll sit and command others, watch them walk out the door
People seemed worthless, I could always find more

Familiar with myself I guess I know my enemy well
I'm my own dog it isn't hard to tell
I got the best gift cause it keeps on giving
And the best part is it keeps me from living
And the best part is, I can't move on
Still stuck at stage one, Tryna be the best actor
Tryna be harder, better, faster, stronger
Tryna live longer than my daddy did
Tryna outlive the race but tryna keep pace
Tryna find a girl that's willing to stay
But am I really trying or just trying to try
Cause every fucking day ends with a sigh
Every open mouth closes grim
Everything I do I see as a sin
But in this rat race does anyone win
In this rat race is there a happy end

Too anxious for anxiety and now the bottle's dry
No more tears to cry cause my eyes are dry too
No more empty sighs it's too much work to breath
No more smiles either it's just bared teeth
I'm lost in thought but am I really thinking
I look pissed off cause I probably am
With the pipe in my hand and the flint wheel flicked
I find my calm state and get a hard dick
I watch stupid shit cause that's all there is
Who'd do their work cause that's boring shit
Now where the fuck am I cause I don't really know
I'm just a shadow in the background looking below
Just stuck observing and learning the truth
What's beneath the skin, what makes it loose
What is a person but a sack of bones
That's trapping a soul that doesn't even know

Birth

Track 5:Alan's in Wonderland

I'm a drunk that doesn't drink
That really needs to think
About where the fuck it is I'm headed
As I walk down this lonely road
Only thoughts I have are home
Wherever the fuck that shit is
I'll ramble on this rant
And surely lose my pants
As I risk the risk of getting commited
To the asylum of my mind
Cause right now I'm wasting time
Writing worthless rhymes of wisdom and wit

Weave a wicker basket to hold all the lies
Rely on the product and contain all the sighs
Metamorphasize to contain the new mind
In a past time without pills we were fine
Now we're fined as they refine their lies to fit us
Give us new clothes, new jobs, but in god we still trust
Value in material but not in the thoughts behind it
Things always get released with the perfect timing

Don't take me away, can't you tell I'm sane
The asylum's for loons, I'm an eagle at best
Invested in more than just cash
But keep this bird in a cage cause his feathers are treasure
Speaking more than words, delivering more than pleasure
Endangered and rare, Stuck in danger, ensnared
Poisoned by the public
To be treated by the villain
Like a delicate bird for once
I'll still die with the setting sun

Let's bum rush the capital, Get a capital gain
Capitalize the purge with aesthetical fame
Money is the matter
Yo, who's first up to bat?
Bugs Bunny?
Or what about Daffy Duck?
These toons are getting crazier lately
Shit on t.v. is getting weaker lately
Subliminally molest the mind of the meager
Metabolize the lies and brainwash the leaders
Of tomorrow and today cause the past is passed
Play the puppet and the person , But the strings just snapped
Am I damaged goods? Good damage? Or bad
Or was I already bad?
Was I already bad?

Under the Influence

Track 2:Alan's In Wonderland

Influencing the bad, cracked a bottle and a model
Made my own man early, I only lead not follow
Goodie two shoes will leave you black and blue
When he opens his mouth and leaves your ego bruised
You're the sheep to my shepherd, the flea to my flock
The beta to my alpha, and the bitch to my cock
I hear you barking but I ain't coming yet
Suck on a chew toy no breaks just yet
Just, just, just, just sit there and listen
The weed's not talking, it's just a kid thinking
Breaking the mold, I put it leagues of leagues under
That shit is so deep but it still hears the thunder
*Boom* Now the titans just clashed
From the child to the grown up, words were just passed
I'm the quarter back but they ain't the wide receiver
In spite of weight, don't let that shit deceive you
Strongarming, tryna pull along your place
You're not superior and neither is your taste
If this were a race you'd be coming in last
Surpassed by the younger and running out of gas
Just Watch your back you already put a knife in it
Wrapped the bandage tight tryna stop the bleeding
Cut off circulation cause the chokeholds comfy
Not gonna stop cause you haven't started coming
Shots fired it's the start of the race
It's a real hand gun, let the turtle set the pace
Cut it back, leave a bit to the imagination
Lemme put you under the true sensation

Heretic

Track 9: Alan's in Wonderland

So fuck religion, cause it fucked me
Baptized at birth but molested at three
Metaphorical, don't get all gaspy
This metahuman mayhem is gonna stay lasting
What's a god that rules by fear
Where's the love we're supposed to share
No brother or sister hood
Just people dying, rebirth's no good
The heart's still beating, the mind's still thinking
But these people, goddamit, they still ain't living
They leaving behind life to live a better life
This plane's always heaven and hell, every night
I'm living in the wrong as you're living in the right
Put away that flash, stop tryna shine your light
In my mind's time every right is wrong
Every wrong is right, and every life's long gone

Think about it, fore you start pointing fingers
Salvation ain't calling, stop waiting for the ring
The rapture is here, death is your transcendence
You should try to live your life before that shit start's ending
Bending to the will of other's in the past
Think about yourself but don't put others last
Christmas everyday, so you better get the present
Halloween every night, trick or treat you to a lesson

So fuck this shit Imma be a heretic
Yea fuck this shit Imma be a heretic
Fuck the religions
And fuck the prescriptions
Don't know what to call it
But that shit ain't living
The shit that you're giving isn't for the good of me
Stressin the pressure of society
Where's family, and the blood brothers
And caring bout the people that you'd rather call mother

(Fuck this shit Imma be a heretic
Yea fuck this shit Imma be a heretic) x4

To Peace Trip by DJAY U4RIA

Disney Princess

Track 4:Alan's in Wonderland

Tryna live my dream not the american nightmare
Only with a wish is life a wonderland, live fear
Freedom is a cage so we'll die hard living
Alice is a myth, not a gift that kept giving
Indulged in the glutton that's a deadly sin
Despite her size, I despise, don't believe her level there
God like stature, standing in my eyes
This dumbass bitch seemed to stand higher than I
Revived by Chesire, gotta catch that spirit guide
Outside looking in, I realize I've died
Still trapped in the meat, my body's got a beef
It's tea time, change places, and keef

Waltzing through disney land, never been
Disney princesses everywhere, remembering
Nostalgia of the highest, got me high again
Before I fall, I recall, everyone follows sin

Girl lemme get your attention for a sec
Got your crystal heel here not looking for sex
Just give in to the charm, and I got a day job
I'll shower you with gifts as long as it pays off
You got that high school high life, not the everyday rella
But you still lit a fire with the cinders, I'll tell ya
Sit behind you in english, love to hear the laugh
Thinking you interested but can I do the math?
See chem's my best subject, but you're now my favorite
Wanna ask you to the dance, hear a yes, and start dating
But I heard you talking to kids that ain't me
So I guess I still need your attention sadly

Waltzing through disney land, never been
Disney princesses everywhere, remembering
Nostalgia of the highest, got me high again
Before I fall, I recall, everyone follows sin

Snow White, you got me on ice
Like your creator, I better think twice
Got molly and lucy but I'm missing something, you
But missing one thing has never been new
If I could wake you with a kiss I'd have tried
But I'm a little nervous and I'm tryna be nice
Far far from rude, away with the brute
Can't be forceful with you, gotta stay true
Your voice sure is fine indeed
Got me feeling higher than the finest tree
You got that nice smile, and the cute cheeks
The beautiful eyes, oh why'd you charm me?