Just a Generation

I thought about my life and then I thought about the knife
Thought of everything that I should've done right
But there's no such thing as wrong, and no good deed lasts for long
The momentum from the spin is just fucking me up
Everything comes around but it's got some extra weight
Every second faster, and more is at stake
Every smile is fading and every grim stare begins
The apathetic general of the rising nation
Follow that model and you'll be like the others
Marching in line as nothing seems to bother
Fuck World War Z cause we're already zombies
Nothing more spectacular than watching t.v.
Sitting in front of the screen and doing nothing
And going blind in the mind from this shit?
Is it worth it? I guess we found the piper
Enticing the minors to live with him forever
Just a general generation of a genuine contemplation
Apathetic to relations and the minds across the nation
No food for thought, and man everyone's starving
The rice and the grains are getting drowned out by the barley
The neurons are fading and losing sight of nirvana
And the line is getting harder to see
I don't know if I crossed it, or if there's a new one drawn
It seems so far away either way and so long
Getting thicker every minute, and getting grayer every hour
The years become seconds as I try to climb this tower
Maybe when I reach the top this world will look different
More beauty to appreciate and less visible contagion
More mind over matter but what matters to me
Is less of the danger of trying to live free
Free from all the judgement, and thoughts of society
Free from the chains that I willingly believed
Would help me either way but they just served to hold me back
The links are getting hot and I'm bound on this track
No way to get up I've fallen and I can't
But little did I realize I could still stand
But now it's a fact, I know it more than most
Not tryna boast but admit it you know
Barely anything, it's the ignorant era
Arrogance and ego and a war on terror

Everytime I see you it's Relapse Retrial
Remembering old thoughts I forgot for awhile
As I fall in the pit that has no foreseen bottom
I fall back in time to the feelings unwanted
I'm an underdog underscored for his eccentrics
Undetermined about where the fuck it is he's going
And every time you can count that I'll fall in the mold
Imma still be missing you when I'm forty years old
Probs still be a virgin cause you're the one true love
It's been years since we talked but there's none above
Don't need to know you cause this shit's programmed in
Reprogramming's a choice, but I can't even begin
Everyday I wake up and I say I'll get a bitch
But is it a bitch I want, or a pretty little miss
Or is it just you, or is it just pussy
I can't tell no more, but the bipolar's moving

Stuck tryna break the cycle so I chose to be a psycho
Tripped out mental and metaphysical style
No drugs below me and no limits to meet
And no counselor or therapy meetings
Just me and my pipe and my line and my tab
The rocks and the caps and the rolled bills like that
It's fuck my life style, contorted to fit
Into the rolled up bill that I'm snortin shit with
Don't know where to start, but I right now can't stop
The beginning's the end and the bottom's on top
The door that I entered's not the door that I left
And I don't even know how I got to this cliff
I'll do a triple back front side flip
Hope I land on my feet like the pussy I am
I'll have eight lives left and the next one's running out
But maybe in the next one I can change what shit's about

Too late to say hello and goodbye's came too early
But what could've been isn't so I should stop worrying
I'm admiring a dyke scrawny cut albino
While I'm losing sight of my life through the keyhole
The door won't fucking budge, and the metal's fucking cold
And every time I push I feel another year old
There goes my eighteens nineteens and twenties
Atleast the next year I won't be so thirsty
Worse is the feeling that I now look forward to
Of getting fucked up and forgetting bout you
Or forgetting what's wrong and remembering to smile
Or going to a dream and staying for awhile
Never should I wake up and hopefully I won't
Be complete til I stumble upon a new throne
I'll be on my knees arms stretched back bent
Because I guess I'm stuck the servant til' the end

Compass

Astral projecting cause my mind’s ejected

Body’s rejected as I start to question

My life, cause did I live it right

Or did I live it wrong, should I fix things with mom

Was the funeral worth it or is the body not at rest

Are there other planes or is there just death

Hoping to get conscious of my higher conscious

But the mind and the body keep prompting

To indulge in life before it runs out

To do all the shit that the news talks about

Don’t need money but I’m working anyways

This pursuit isn’t neutral but degrading my brain

I know what I want but it’s not what I seek

I haven’t put in work, I just beat my meat

Give me the things that make this world a sin

Cause this world is life from now til’ the end

Which way is up

Which way is down

Which way is the way to make that sound

You could just sit back as time slows down

Or enjoy every second on the clock

For now

Ignorance is bliss but I’m not ignorant

Sometimes I think that I’m more arrogant

Abnormal among weird and weird around normal

Mind half there but the body seems normal

I’m not a zombie yet but I’ve started the process

Decaying my mind and ranking up in the contest

This hunger is both physical and mental

But what I seek, could it be detrimental

Cause I’m losing my roots with the pot being broken

Shards are getting shattered as these words are spoken

Starting to lean more to the physical plane

And this state that I’m in isn’t the only to blame

The drugs were my aura and without them what is

Test me in two months they’ll still be my piss

I could be dry for years and I’d still be high

But it’s just not the same, and I’m far from fine

Chorus

I’m losing my roots as they dry and wither

Come hither my brother and act like a mister

No bastards no bitches no cunts and no dicks

No tricks no harlots and no more bullshit

Love one another as I have loved you

But the concept of love is more lie than truth

Too self-centered to care for another

Which is why we can fire on our brothers

It’s just brother on sister on father on mother

With plastic and steel and wood and color

With crosses and stars and books and scrolls

And now keyboards and screens and triggers to go

In this world is there any one light

That isn’t tainted by the money in sight

The moral compass can’t point just one way

More arms than Shiva but not one of them pray

Too obsessed with fate to believe in reality
Starry eyed stick in the mud of a family
Cause it's dragging me down, man hold my baggie
I'll rip it later cause now my pants are gettin saggy
Howl for the pack and the hoes'll howl back
But they're lookin for a wolf that's got a nice sack
Big balls, big signs, big pack, big fine
They like to live dangerous but not this time
He's skinned and the pelt's so pretty
But not one time did he wimper did he
Loyal to the end, to every single friend
Even though they might be his enemy
Doubt surmounts to the mud in the hole
It's quicksand my digga so don't struggle
Once you enter the flow it's hard to get out
So just go with that shit for now

Break down the teen years and build a man from the rubble
Your boy's become a man and he's looking for trouble
Daddy may be dead but he was a dirty bastard
Mommy's still here but she's a fucking bitch
Oh thank god that I have my brother
Thank god I have him despite that snitch
Better watch out fore you dicks start rubbing clits
Don't make more mistakes, I mean have kids
The kids aren't alright, cause neither were the parents
Nothing was secure but their egos apparent
Conspiracy of the children of the corn
When daddy died you can bet I didn't mourn
But my mom did, and didn't like that I didn't
Didn't know what he was, but I had to live with it
Then the house came a crumbling down
Home is where the heart is, I guess I'm homeless now

My mind just wanders from place to place
As my body stand still and blows off fate
The rye bread mold and the horse's blow
The experimental death and the experience followed
Saw my dead dad, and again and again
Stuck at the hip while I was stuck swinging
Didn't try to fly cause I knew that I'd fall
But that thought's holding me back like the mud in the hole
The face in the hall keeps staring
As the hands keep grabbing at me
The grin that I see is glaring
And the hysterics are full of glee
The eyeballs count up more than three
Veins popping and teeth to teeth
Tongues drooping soaked in the H
And the LSD and the pretty K

Learning the game ain't nothing to be ashamed of
Drugs are my life and drugs are where I came from
Drugs are where I'm going and what I'm taking
Drugs are me man, and they're why I'm shaking
Drugs
You never know what you're gonna get
It's drugs
Let's keep going cause I ain't dead yet
Yea drugs
And you know who's running this shit
It's the government, Hrmmm, I mean hood rats
Just drugs

I pack my pound of weed into the holy bong
As the green taints I'm thinking this song
Going through necrosis but won't be for long
From green to red to black and nothing's wrong
Recreational is the excuse that I give
For Mary for Molly for Lucy I give
Anything, because they're my best of friends
After family cause the pack's good til the end
Some people might think I'm a god send
But the devil's inside and cause of him I tend
To bring out the best which is also the worst
Motives are melted and then they contort
Like a twisted child that's not of this earth
Demons and devils and death to the world

Learning the game ain't nothing to be ashamed of
Drugs are my life and drugs are where I came from
Drugs are where I'm going and what I'm taking
Drugs are me man, and they're why I'm shaking
Drugs
You never know what you're gonna get
It's drugs
Let's keep going cause I ain't dead yet
Yea drugs
And you know who's running this shit
It's the government, Hrmmm, I mean hood rats
Just drugs

I'm not a racist but no white or black

Just the good old green cause fuck heart attacks

Or whatever they're called Call it opiate sickness

Morphine morphing mental conditions

No needles no pipes of the crack type

No holes in my arms and my legs tonight

No getting strung out cause I'm already there

This air is turning my body to air

The pollutants no better than what I already breathe

Just oxygen, nicotine, and THC

Cause who could give up the wacky tobaccy

Addictions are peddled, not pushed my lacky

Contracted by contact with others with it

Government says no but they're still with it

Cause money's money, and crimes just a game

Monopoly's best market and maker of fame

Learning the game ain't nothing to be ashamed of
Drugs are my life and drugs are where I came from
Drugs are where I'm going and what I'm taking
Drugs are me man, and they're why I'm shaking
Drugs
You never know what you're gonna get
It's drugs
Let's keep going cause I ain't dead yet
Yea drugs
And you know who's running this shit
It's the government, Hrmmm, I mean hood rats
Just drugs

G bongs in my lungs so I won't be here for long

Just give me an hour fore I rip another wrong

Gotta stay high cause I need the illusion

Of happiness that has kept me deluded

Colluded but could I care no

Just rip another one of the greenest bowls

Pop another tab and pop another cap

Roll another bill and shovel on more crap

Mother's are crying as father's are dying

Sons don't know better cause they're just following

The boys in blue and the men in red

The women in black cause the men are dead

Just eat more of the governments poison 

Let them sit back as we stand toiling

As long as they're comfy who could care less

Death's just a statistic to life I guess

Da Da Da Da Da Da Da

To the flag I pledge allegiance
Corrupt cops and laws misleading
Thoughts caged in and pistols drawn
But won't you all just sing along?
Go to school and graduate
Look at porn and masturbate
Goals for me and many more
Cause can you see another door?
Who could call this art career?
Should get the fuck up out of here
Cause we only do one thing
Follow orders and never think
Working it at mini wage
Sleeping it off to pass the day
Slowly I became a man
But also I got hairy hands

Third eye blind and nothing more
Fluoride food and funky gore
Pop guns we used in the war
Anger's a tool but what for?
We were born just to die
Serving a country unified
Under one bigass figurehead
Who could care less how many dead
On the streets and in the air
Anywhere from here to there
All we are is fertilizer
For the maggots and the liars
Rooted in they'll only grow
Nitrates at the speed of nitro
Fuel injected in the air
But pollution's not something to fear

Demon eyes are demonized
Everyone looks on with wide eyes
Cause they take after Ronald Reagan
Beating on hippies for protestaring
At the dirt and all the blood
Cause we fight all these wars for good
Not for money or the gain
It's for liberty or in its name
Just like us searching for WMD
All in the name of liberty
Forget the oil that they have
Our motive's good and never bad
Ask these questions every night
But maybe you won't sleep so tight
The demons aren't with red eyes
The demons spread a lot more lies

Just a body for the soul to dwell
Just a kid making it through living hell
Just a mind wandering to many places
Too many places for me
It was just to get by, not to get high
Not lookin for money just relieving sighs
Never did I want to say goodbye
But she said it anyways and I was like
No wait baby come back
But you're not my baby and I'll still call you that
So weed went from a hobby to a vice
Cause then everyone knew it but not what it's like
All I could think was my love denied
These thoughts don't just leave but still I tried
Locked them up but then she found the key
Just to let them out and then she'd flee

I was your average stoner
Wake and bake and act like a loner
Go to school high cause I couldn't get by
Without a little hit from the green guy
It wasn't addiction but to the smile
Cause without that shit I'd sigh for awhile
Too starry eyed to see straight
Lost sight and didn't know til it's too late
But eventually I came down to earth
Received the green and the rebirth
A born again hippy if that's even a thing
But atleast now there's no more worries
Just peace to my brothers and peace to another
Nubian or not anger's just a bother
We all live on the same planet
But too greedy to share it, God Dammit

Even though my windows are wide
The blinds are down and I'm ready to fight
Despite the peace that I preach, It's harder lived than to teach
Living in a sea of ignorance there's bare intelligence to seek
Judgement day's here and you'll see it tomorrow
No new thoughts cause everything's borrowed
Can't forget the past or look to the future
So we're stuck in last and looking like losers
Money's just an object and it's all that we see
The apple of affection because nothing's free
Not food, not housing, not friends, not life
Not people, not happiness, nothing but strife
And anyone that resists is nowhere nearby
They're living secluded but not in these borders why?
Cause of globalization spread by the nation
A disease worse than any deadly contagion


So Imma just write verses and make chorus's later. The stuff that I write is along the lines of a structured rant, so it's hard to do the chorus sometimes. Plus, I'm starting to feel like a preacher when I spit it A Capella.

These windows are wide but I still keep them closed
Bleeding the thoughts that the mind refused
Refuted falsely but uncontested
By the vessel that's graced with the ability to
The strings that built it are growing tight
The nail is driven and gets deeper each night
No coffin just leather, no metal just light
But no light shining in the leather's mind
No air to breath cause it's skin tight
Maybe the tenant has failed this time
But that is just habit, to change it is murder
But then again body and soul die every night