Ugh Summer

So I'm both looking forward to and dreading the summer. I've been having a lot of trouble finding a job and even if I did I would still have more free time than I do during the school year. That's shit because then I have more time to wallow in my self-disgust and loneliness. Despite my ability, not discusses here, to move on to pursuing other people I still miss her a lot. I'd say "Blue" but she goes by Echo now I think. I just miss the wackass conversations we'd have and the fact we used to entertain ourselves with practically nothing. Nostalgia's a bitch isn't it. As for the positive expectations this summer I'm gonna start going to festivals, in fact I'm going to a campout up in Maryland this weekend. Besides I can get a start on my notoriety as a glover, I can help spread my new, and final, name , "B LAZ E". Pronounced Be Lazy. I'm going to have a mixtape by the end of the summer and start making and selling shirts also. I already have 3 designs made and working on a third. I've even got a title for it, trip art. You can check out the songs I picked for my mixtape, "The Accident EP" on the right where I put up the 8 I picked. There's a lot of profit projected from making it as a T-Shirt designer, which could fuel my rap career as well as give me walk around money. If things manage to kick-off this upcoming summer will be busy, but problems will still arise. I do hope she'll eventually talk to me, how I don't know. I think she would if I had the balls to open my mouth in person, but I'll remain a coward about that shit for awhile. I can't always be a prided brave dipshit.