18 Years A Few Months and Some Change

18 years a few months and some change
That's all the time that I got to my name
And I just gotta say fore I pass out
I really can't stand where I'm at
18 years a few months and some change
That's all the time that I got to my name
And I just gotta say fore I pass out
I really can't stand where I'm at

18 years a few months and some change
My dear My dear just take away the pain
18 years a few months and some change
I really can't believe that I lost my way

Momma never knows what I'm doing
I can't agree that she should
The direction that I'm headed is a sad one
And I can't really say what's good
I got 18 years few months and some change
I haven't made life worth living in those days
My room is a tomb, I won't leave a note
One day I'm gone, no story to be told

That's 18 years a few months and some change
My dear My dear just take away the pain
18 years a few months and some change
I really can't believe that I lost my way

Give me a year I'll be back on track
Or will I just be dead
College, a job, a life with a girl
Or one in the chamber to the head
I don't know where I'm going
I really can't stand where I'm at
In 18 years few months and some change
The only thing I've been is a brat

18 years a few months and some change
My dear My dear just take away the pain
18 years a few months and some change
My dear My dear just take away the pain

18 years a few months and some change
That's all the time that I got to my name
And I just gotta say fore I pass out
I really can't stand where I'm at

To Regrets by Contrary

Schemin

Wake up in the morning feeling wasted as fuck
I roll back my hair as I pull in my gut
Not just hungover more like hung out to dry
And I cry, tears are nothing to this bitch
Don't look out for me best look out for yourself
Stop tryna intrude, better fuck off or else
I take on the pain fuck the pills man I'm out
Throw me in the washer as I tumble through town
Talking to a wall but

You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Cause I'm Different From Everyone Else
You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Differently Do It Differently

Really I'm stuck lounging, Scheming up a plan
Tryna plot a death that befits a good man
Imma steal it from him, plan the wake myself
Disappear for now like a book on the shelf
Boxing the mirror busy with my games
Playing blood knuckles cause I don't feel the pain
Picking out the glass as I'm picking up a pipe
Painting a picture of ever single night

Haven't lived long enough to be a real rapper
Risked some time in the slammer
Labeled with a problem but no answer yet
Receiving treatment when there's nothing wrong? Yes
I been holding onto problems past ninety nine
I'm under eightteen but I know the grind
I'm just here to do my time
Imma rhyme rhyme rhyme
Ascend new circles, and commit new crimes
As my spit comes out like slime
If you need one, here's your sign
That I'm different, but not dead
A little fucked up in the head
But fuck it, who isn't

You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Cause I'm Different From Everyone Else
You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Cause I'm Different From Everyone Else

Bitch I'm B LAZ E, not just lazy
Feeling kinda hazy as I blaze
Mind's like a maze with no map
This game's got no rulebook to rap
No tutorial, no scenario, no definite success
But Imma keep trying and do my best
Not in it for commercial success I'm in it for me
Try and hold me down, I got the keys, and I'm free

To Schemin by contrary

Flipped

I don't know where I'm headed just know where I be
Don't know what to do, believe me

Just a kid on the block tryna make his bucks
I flipped caps, tabs, and green blocks
Never had the heat, never packed glocks
But I got nabbed but a lying cop
Put it forward a year, it's August
Turnt before the year I got out in Autumn
Facing more charges but no money made
Gotta pay a fee if I'm to get aid
Social security just ain't enough
I guess it wouldn't matter if I had three months
But no, fuck that, gotta borrow more
She can't afford it but where do I go
I hid behind these bars but don't need em
I'm tryna sort it out and I'm pleadin
Don't make me throw my life away for some change
I got plenty of time to live but not this way
I got money, but is it enough
Still gotta pay for college, is it enough
I got big things to do with my life
But you cut it away like you had a knife

What's a life worth, a future, a world
Where's the time been, I lost it, bored
Can't see to tomorrow, Can't judge fate
Not gonna be free if I go at this rate
What am I to do if I go to jail
The years in a solitary world
No, not for me, not for you
We humans,  need humans, it's true
You couldn't believe what I'm going through
Past few days been a haze but I got it
I built up my walls and they smashed it
Call me Toby, or call me King Kunta
I might be broken but I'll get a fix
Might be in need but I'll get through
I got this whole world that I need to prove
But an underpants gnome doesn't get past step two
And a king doesn't crawl but I'm on my knees
Clawing at my life cause nothing's free
I sold my soul, a big price to pay
But I guess I owe debt cause they'll take me away
Not tryna play games no more
But I rolled the dice, no 7 11
No 7 11, no 711

What's a man to do when he doesn't have much left to live
When he's been stripped of his pride and his nature
When he's been beat and broken
Back problems, not a problem, but outspoken
Had to say goodbye, never got to say hello
She shouldn't see me cry, no not anymore
She shouldn't be here, yet she  is
Put in on my tab, but don't expect payment

To The Aftermath by Contrary Beats

Apologies

Yo man I'm sorry, I ain't got a bag for you
Yo man I'm sorry, I can't play with you

Speak Up

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
Anyways

I'm sitting here moping on the screen like a pixel
Got this dust in my face like a pistol
Whipping out these words like a semi
Getting fully automatic as my soul dies
And

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say

WHY ASK ME A QUESTION? If you didn't want the answer
Stop peeping in my room like I wronged the master
Stop teasing a chance that you know I can't take
You hate my friends, I was a mistake
That's all that you see, why can't you be proud
I'm making it my way, please come around
You don't know my life, you just know the cloud
Closed my door shut I need to keep you out
You lost your last chance, I guess it wasn't found
Time and time again I try and do my own thing
But you can't take it, you gotta be the queen
Fuck your domicile if you can't be civil
Stop tryna run the race from a pedestal
And

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say

I'm standing hear shouting but you ask me to speak up

Better keep my mouth shut, words are wasted on you

Why talk to a wall? You're standing in my way

Just crumble, today's not your day

You're out of your prime, only serve to annoy

To prime the new generation means support their choice

When you launch an arrow it's out of your hands

Not an airplane like when I was a kid

Gotta realize that I'm feeling out of place
Aspire to move mountains and stand with the greats
School isn't the answer, it's the obstacle here
Tryna make music, time to face my fears
And

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice now I don't know what to say

To Backstabber by Contrary Beats