Dissociated

Blowing through a pound fore I ever hit 18 years old
Drank so much delsym that my body doesn't know
Dissociated from the past or the present
My mind's racing but my body's just dead
Take a little pill lay my head and go to sleep
But the blood's coming out in my shit, everyday, every week
Blow a smoke ring, cause that's the only ring I'd hold
Take my time to write, but what story have I told
I'm a king yea, where's my queen and all my gold
I'm busy missing out as I get a head on this road

Look where I've been, check out this flip
Check out this hair, Check out this tip
I'm just a head, no body be
I'm just a mind, don't bother me
Look where I've been, check out this flip
Check out this hair, Check out this tip
I'm just a head, no body be
I'm just a mind, don't caution me

I'm just a kid tryna make it day by day

Lost my dad early, can't stop to pray

Don't know where I'm going with this shit

Can't ever seem to forget

I built this life around my way but people care to stand away

I have my friends and family too, but not many know the truth

I lost my body where'd it go, I lost my heart it's with my soul

I lost the thoughts that I hold dear, I lost the truth everywhere

Who is it there, that's staring back

I try to wave, he copies that

Is it goodbye or a hello

Where is my mind to tell me so

Look where I've been, check out this flip
Check out this hair, Check out this tip
I'm just a head, no body be
I'm just a mind, don't bother me
Look where I've been, check out this flip
Check out this hair, Check out this tip
I'm just a head, no body be
I'm just a mind, don't caution me

I'm sitting here outside my body
Tryna write a rap like lodi dodi
I did a flip off the board and I landed on the crete
Got my head up my ass as the grounds touch my feet
I'm tryna surpass, I aim to be the best
A Goatboy rapping as he tries to pass his tests
I'm sposed' to be special, for now I'm chilling at home
Dreaming of the day I'd be the next Hov
To be the next Yeezy, preaching through my songs
Or be the next Rocky, this dream takes too long
I gotta persevere but we really out here
I'm ahead of my time so I can't show fear
But how long will the dream last?
When I'm 35 and my EP's on blast
Gotta get in the booth, gotta write a new lick
Gotta get a head on this road fore' I get carsick

Schemin

Wake up in the morning feeling wasted as fuck
I roll back my hair as I pull in my gut
Not just hungover more like hung out to dry
And I cry, tears are nothing to this bitch
Don't look out for me best look out for yourself
Stop tryna intrude, better fuck off or else
I take on the pain fuck the pills man I'm out
Throw me in the washer as I tumble through town
Talking to a wall but

You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Cause I'm Different From Everyone Else
You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Differently Do It Differently

Really I'm stuck lounging, Scheming up a plan
Tryna plot a death that befits a good man
Imma steal it from him, plan the wake myself
Disappear for now like a book on the shelf
Boxing the mirror busy with my games
Playing blood knuckles cause I don't feel the pain
Picking out the glass as I'm picking up a pipe
Painting a picture of ever single night

Haven't lived long enough to be a real rapper
Risked some time in the slammer
Labeled with a problem but no answer yet
Receiving treatment when there's nothing wrong? Yes
I been holding onto problems past ninety nine
I'm under eightteen but I know the grind
I'm just here to do my time
Imma rhyme rhyme rhyme
Ascend new circles, and commit new crimes
As my spit comes out like slime
If you need one, here's your sign
That I'm different, but not dead
A little fucked up in the head
But fuck it, who isn't

You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Cause I'm Different From Everyone Else
You Think You Know What's Best For Me Well Then You Best Go Fuck Yourself
Imma Do This Shit Differently Cause I'm Different From Everyone Else

Bitch I'm B LAZ E, not just lazy
Feeling kinda hazy as I blaze
Mind's like a maze with no map
This game's got no rulebook to rap
No tutorial, no scenario, no definite success
But Imma keep trying and do my best
Not in it for commercial success I'm in it for me
Try and hold me down, I got the keys, and I'm free

To Schemin by contrary

Lounging, straight relaxing
Dropped me a dime, sorry but no taxes
My world got knocked off its axis
But they're knocked on their asses
Highschoolers these days, what the fuck
Saying there's no remorse, what the fuck
I did the crime, did the time, why punish me more
Cause I ain't crying why show me the door
You think you got it all figured out
S'posed to be my friends but don't know what I'm about
Not a sociopath, psychopath, I'm on my own path
And I'm out

I was alone with you, fuck the pack
Where's the crew, what were you, get a smack
Violence ain't the answer but you didn't ask questions
Yal jumped to assume your assumptions
I ain't fucked up, dried up since that day
I stayed inside when I coulda been out partying
The blood of the covenant's thicker than the water of the womb
We supposed to be fam but I guess that isn't true

I was made an example, you got to go home
I slept in a cell, you couldn't pick up the phone
Throughout the ordeal I'm stuck worried about you
Guess my thoughts were wasted, and our standing's the proof
Go through what I did and try to be bright
Not an easy task, but it wasn't to spite
Not about to cry about mistakes of the past
They ain't happening again cause I'm back on my path

I guess our path's don't intersect
You're just another insect
Find you underfoot the next time we pass
Fool me once, shame on me, fool me twice, guess I crashed
I'm not giving you a chance if you want one
Wiped my hands clean of you having a problem
Not my fault how you feel today
I grew up already, it's your turn kiddy


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MnFJe-Q4TRw

RIP

Pineal flexing ,I'm ripped in the mind
Rip before my time, rip was daddy's sign
Rap is the game I'm playing for now
Pour me another fore the lights go out
For today was a good day
I kicked back, lit one up, good blaze
Got a cap on my head and a new craze
If you really think I'm fronting, you bluffing
You can't be serious, I'm something to your nothing
I got substance, and some words for you
When you think that you big but can't fit your shoes
You just, gotta grow, gotta get old
Gotta leave behind the anger that you too well know
It might blow, but hard work pays off
I work my day job for my money, didn't cough
Didn't stutter, no mutter, I got fired, another
Bout to find me a new one that's better than the offer
I've been offered, deals with the devil
Sealing my soul to live better, to revel
I had to take a few, wasn't hard to choose
Living at home beats jail house blues
I wouldn't fit in, they got animals in there
Not a field trip but something to fear
Living in a cage will just build on my rage
Leave a change man, not a man, but a beast
Pardon me, Pretty please, I can't become this
I gotta find my future not die in the abyss
About to apply for ivy league scholarships
But my GPA's dead I gotta test to get in

Godly, empowered, betrayers are devoured
Judas, Brutus, Cassius, Call em political activists
Call em deceivers but their sins aren't unique
A lust for power, that dirty greed
It's what defines man, as I've defined me
Only loyal to me, and my family
Brothers, sisters, lords of most high
Come down from the heavens to dance tonight
To revel in life, for that's why I live
I'm not here to do what you bid
These words are now spoken and will travel great length
To reach those worth wasting the breath in good taste
I'm no ordinary man, but then again who is
I seek to eek out my own existence
All it needs is substance, my meaning's my own
But these idols and lench mobs condemn what I condone
Condescend, but father they don't know what they do
Although in your name it's not focused on you
Let history speak, the crusades, the middle east
It is money and land not peace that they seek
I absolve myself of the crimes I commit
Can't continue on this journey if I hold regret
Mistakes have been made, can't deny but admit
Only can learn, grow in wisdom and wit

I dream of Valhalla, of Nirvana,of balance
I got biblical but who doesn't at this
In the end I'm just a kid with dreams, dreams, more dreams
Of a perfect world, eyes open, not what it seems
It's a goal unrealistic, gotta say fuck reality
To accept it is hard, life's such a tragedy
To grow up thinking the sun will always shine
To go to bed at night with a bright light in your eyes
Then smacked with the hard truth, a truth seemingly unreal
That we all live in a world that can't feel
When societies dominated by data and graphs
Where numbers do matter, not heart and contact
The indigo tribe will rise to combat
With words not fist, with wisdom not tact
But a perfect world never could be
Without imperfections what would be me
Mistakes make the man, and I've been sculpting for years
Let go of regret as I shed my tears
If I'm to become what I'm destined to be
I need to make a change in society
But change is a hard flap of the wings
If a butterfly caused hurricanes you need a turbine at least
I need a bottle and a light to sleep well at night now
Can't partake of either if I don't want to go to jail

Speak Up

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
Anyways

I'm sitting here moping on the screen like a pixel
Got this dust in my face like a pistol
Whipping out these words like a semi
Getting fully automatic as my soul dies
And

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say

WHY ASK ME A QUESTION? If you didn't want the answer
Stop peeping in my room like I wronged the master
Stop teasing a chance that you know I can't take
You hate my friends, I was a mistake
That's all that you see, why can't you be proud
I'm making it my way, please come around
You don't know my life, you just know the cloud
Closed my door shut I need to keep you out
You lost your last chance, I guess it wasn't found
Time and time again I try and do my own thing
But you can't take it, you gotta be the queen
Fuck your domicile if you can't be civil
Stop tryna run the race from a pedestal
And

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say

I'm standing hear shouting but you ask me to speak up

Better keep my mouth shut, words are wasted on you

Why talk to a wall? You're standing in my way

Just crumble, today's not your day

You're out of your prime, only serve to annoy

To prime the new generation means support their choice

When you launch an arrow it's out of your hands

Not an airplane like when I was a kid

Gotta realize that I'm feeling out of place
Aspire to move mountains and stand with the greats
School isn't the answer, it's the obstacle here
Tryna make music, time to face my fears
And

I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice you can't hear what I say
I lost my voice now I don't know what to say

To Backstabber by Contrary Beats