Boredom

So I guess that posts are only good for updates. I long ago ran out of fuel to talk about the stupidest shit with interest. I still could, it just feels emptier and more boring to do now than before. If there were a person in front of me I could go on and on, but I've found everything lately has just been boredom. The world is so much duller since I started this blog and everyday I feel lonelier. I probably only feel lonely cause it's the summer though. I spend more time by myself, thank PINEAPPLE I got a job though. I might not've been able to survive if not for a job. It's stupid though. At first I didn't spend any money at all, but now I can't help but spend it, which I think'll stop when I go back to school and have even less time to waste spending money. Steam however is such a temptress, in the past two weeks I've spent around 30 or 40 bucks on Dota, which I barely play now but I did it for shits and giggles, and then another 40 or so on other games. I officially own a digital copy of The Binding of Issac though, which is pleasing. Now to the main component of the update, school. I start school in 4 days, but the first week is just half days at a college campus. I get to meet a shit ton of new people cause for the past 4 years I've had a lot of the same people in my classes. I've mentioned this way more than I have to here but some program called Integrated Math and Science, which means people that think they're geniuses and view people outside of the program like shit. Not everyone, more like the obnoxious people that gave the program a bad name. Thankfully, only one of the faces of the program went to governor school. Well those faces, I'm one of the other "representatives" as the person that hasn't given a shit for awhile and kinda slides by. I don't know how I feel about the Governor School though, I'm going to expect a shit ton of snobs and few people that I'd find tolerable much less enjoyable. It's like a concentration camp for the "geniuses" of high school that got spoiled by some program or their parents into being the high and mighty shits I'm going to get to know. Of course, it could be the opposite and there's going to be a good amount of people that slack off, otherwise known as my kind of people. That get by on little effort and bullshit, and a shit ton of luck. Lets see, what else about school. Oh, I'm taking ONE other AP class, English. It's my end block which is perfect for me because then I can get a nap in before I go to work in the afternoon, but AP just equals more work and a free college credit that a lot of colleges don't even accept. I like to read and write, just not when it's made work. I don't want to read a fucking book or poem and then have to analyze and regurgitate parts of it to please some adult with a big head from being in charge. I can except to see her/him/it/whatever in my French class, maybe. I'm going to expect the they're not there if you don't look at them type of interactions between us. Another person I'd expect animosity, but Echo isn't that type of person, or at least the Blue I think I know. But off that subject because it's a sore subject and my boredom is kicking in again. On a semi-related note in the sense that I'm switching from the old love interest to the new one, I'm still a dipshit with no balls. I can't even talk to Sara. She seats people, rather than going on the floor and checking for tables and expecting which ones to open, so I don't get to talk to her if I'm on the floor. Even more, I've been demoted to only bussing on Tuesdays, which are my new favorite days. I might get put on the floor more often in the future though, hopefully when Sara's working also. We trade a lot of smiles but I can't help but think it's the nervous, he smiled so I gotta smile back, kinda smile from her. I'm not always the first to smile though, but sometimes that's all the interaction I get. I've been a big enough dumbass to just ignore that she's there sometimes. For instance, on Tuesday when I came in I said hi to two of my friends that work there, which I don't talk to much, they were talking to her but I didn't even look towards her. I made myself look like I was fucking gay. That sounds a little harsh but I'm saying I made it look like I was more interested in people with dicks than her. My friend said I should just make more conscious actions to talk to her, rather than just letting shit happen like that. I do have a plan though, I'm going to let the information leak by asking one of her Hostess friends if she's single,  which is enough to suggest I wanna get with hhheeerrrrr, and if what I think'd happen happens, then she'll get told about it and then maybe I don't have to be the ice breaker and she can come to me. I have two last resorts though. Numero uno, wait another three months when I can get a mini raise and some benefits then cross train into being a host so I can talk to her. Only problem with that is in 3 months I can get fired, she can get fired, she can quit, or she can get a boyfriend if she doesn't already have one. The other options is come into work on molly and then I'll have the balls to talk to her cause I'll be talking to everyone as I sweat my ass off. Problem with that is obvious, I'm going to be sweating. Then there's also that thing about how it's a bad idea to go to work on drugs, much less something as obvious as molly. But eh, only time'll tell what's to come from me hiding behind other things. I do have enough friends there though to network. It's not that hard to get other people to do things for me, but I probably should do this on my own. Oh well, retarded update done.