Crushed

Ok so if the last post didn't suggest it, I'm in love again. BUT, this time it's a little different. The crush is on the same level as the one I had on Blues. Totally, utterly, crushed. It's like there's an ocean above me not just because of the pressure but because I'm drowning in delirium and dopey smiles. This time though, I ACTUALLY TALK TO HER...kinda. I make her laugh, do the whole entire clown around shit. But, problem is I know my first impression with her is that I was a nerd because I said my favorite sport was Dota in class, but that might've gotten wiped when I said my life motto was screw it. We were doing one of those introductory things in English. She's weird, and cute, and her laugh is just uplifting to me. I love making her laugh, which is my usual sign that I'm smitten with a girl, but in there lies the problem, all I do is that. I'm at the usual dilemma, don't know how to break down the barrier and talk to her like a normal person, on a serious level. She's initiated maybe 2 conversations with me, but I kinda just sit there. I was overjoyed though when she started sitting in front of me in class, atleast that way she'll hear my side comments and have something to laugh at. Ahhh....the best and worst part of the human experience is definitely being in love, if only I could see it through just once. Alas, I may have something going though. I opened three fortune cookies and in this order they read, "There is a prospect of a thrilling time ahead of you" "Expect the Best" and "Determination is what you need now"; It may just be coincidence, but the universe works mysteriously, and everything has some other meaning and retains somewhat to fate.