This is really hard for me to admit but I pretty much I fell in love, at least I think I did. But the fucked up part is that the girl I love utterly hates me and would probably love to gut me with a knife and have a bath in my blood. I fell in love a while ago but it's lasted for a while, leaving me utterly miserable and unhappy, especially since she knows I like her, I never used the major "L" word. I've rapped about my emotional unrest and talked things out with my friends lots of times, but to no avail. I can't get over her, I don't think I ever will. Now when I'm at home I just can't stand being alone, that's due to the fact that all I ever do is start wallowing in my misery, self-hate, and pity. And cause this girl is in my classes I get reminded daily of the fuck up that sadly is my life. Not like it ever mattered much, I have friends but most of them are total douchebags, or don't get me. According to some people "everyone hates me" but in truth it's cause they're worried about themselves, and I really just want that person to meet my fist one day, he could drown in his own pool of blood. People are just bitches too much, I bet the world would be at peace if we just sat and talked things out for a while. But anyways, now I'm depressed, that's why I got a blog, so I have an online journal to bitch to, and now my "many" viewers , HRRMMM!! 1 or 2, get to read about it.
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