Shaded

People forget while I'm the big reminder
People move on while I live where life's timeless
People change while me? A line's more dynamic
I may be well rounded but the titanic I captain
Self-condemnation as my blood get's saturated
The pills, the masturbation, the momentum activated
The signs I try to read  but I might as well be dyslexic
I see the trouble coming, but do I run? No I test it
I've heard of blind faith, but being blind is just different
Tired of sitting here, asking for direction
I don't know where I'm going so I'm off to meet a message
Maker says hello and I tell him death's a blessing
Try and take a minute to have a conversation
Ask him where he's been and ask him where I'm headed
He just stands there so I list off my positives
I'm funny, I can write, I can talk, I can listen
I'm a leader among leaders but secretly a sheep
I can stand strong as much as I can curl up and weep
I care to say hello because to the world you're just another
But in my blind eyes you're a world I've never been
There's more to faith than confidence where you're going
Just as I see blind that my mind's not all knowing
It's illusioned, deluded, dissecting every thought
Over complicated for my own good that I've wrought
A bird's just a bird, not feather wing and beak
A song's just a song, not a message to the weak
So I'll weep, sitting here in my room
Thinking up thoughts that I might say to you
I know the answers no but I can't help but try
My mind's been made up, whether you're girl or guy
Whether you're big or small, gaunt or well fed
I'm living for the day, tomorrow I could be dead
I don't know who this is for, I guess general public
Definitely not for you who thinks that it is