Flipped

I don't know where I'm headed just know where I be
Don't know what to do, believe me

Just a kid on the block tryna make his bucks
I flipped caps, tabs, and green blocks
Never had the heat, never packed glocks
But I got nabbed but a lying cop
Put it forward a year, it's August
Turnt before the year I got out in Autumn
Facing more charges but no money made
Gotta pay a fee if I'm to get aid
Social security just ain't enough
I guess it wouldn't matter if I had three months
But no, fuck that, gotta borrow more
She can't afford it but where do I go
I hid behind these bars but don't need em
I'm tryna sort it out and I'm pleadin
Don't make me throw my life away for some change
I got plenty of time to live but not this way
I got money, but is it enough
Still gotta pay for college, is it enough
I got big things to do with my life
But you cut it away like you had a knife

What's a life worth, a future, a world
Where's the time been, I lost it, bored
Can't see to tomorrow, Can't judge fate
Not gonna be free if I go at this rate
What am I to do if I go to jail
The years in a solitary world
No, not for me, not for you
We humans,  need humans, it's true
You couldn't believe what I'm going through
Past few days been a haze but I got it
I built up my walls and they smashed it
Call me Toby, or call me King Kunta
I might be broken but I'll get a fix
Might be in need but I'll get through
I got this whole world that I need to prove
But an underpants gnome doesn't get past step two
And a king doesn't crawl but I'm on my knees
Clawing at my life cause nothing's free
I sold my soul, a big price to pay
But I guess I owe debt cause they'll take me away
Not tryna play games no more
But I rolled the dice, no 7 11
No 7 11, no 711

What's a man to do when he doesn't have much left to live
When he's been stripped of his pride and his nature
When he's been beat and broken
Back problems, not a problem, but outspoken
Had to say goodbye, never got to say hello
She shouldn't see me cry, no not anymore
She shouldn't be here, yet she  is
Put in on my tab, but don't expect payment

To The Aftermath by Contrary Beats

Lick it Dry it Hit it Spliff it
Grind it Rip it Cash it Reload
Cocking the gun like I'm cocking my dick
But this thing ain't loaded yet
The shotgun's broken
And the bowl's a minotaur
And the tree's so green
And the weed's so par
Hit the dankiest dank that you'll ever smell
Got that earthy earth scent that I know so well
Am I high yet? Man it's hard to tell
Been puffing this shit every day, so well
I'm probably half baked
And probably half naked
Eye's probably red
And I'm probably still shakin
Hit the snooze
Cause I got time to lose
I'm just wakin an bakin
And using a sploof
Cause the five feet to the door
Is five feet more, and I don't want more
Been doing this shit five days a week
Then I made it seven to beat the heat
Cause the summer's hot
And I live inside
So I got me a bowl
And lost suicide
This air that I'm breathing's just so divine
And the ladies that I'm checking are so fine
Gotta hold my jaw so that it don't drop
But when I try an talk my lips just lock
I'm checkin that ass
And I'm checkin them titties
And the face that I'm checkin's
Oh so pretty
Just bitch please text me
Or bitch please call
Don't give me your number
If you didn't like what you saw

To  by DJay U4RIA

Turn Up Song

Rolling Rolling, All my rules be golden
Can't break up the circle as we turnt until the morning
On my way to high places, so high that I can't see
Eye's more than asian, it's more than just tree
Pass that ketamine, fuck that purple lean, It's a symphony
Smoking green leaves mixed with ecstasy
Sillier than a cap, and madder than a hatter
Pour me a drink, as I wait for pitter patter
We're gonna go places, so what the fuck's the matter
Gonna play on the playground, but first break up that shatter
Drip a little L as my drip is getting lighter
Running from my body my soul's brighter than a lighter
My heads heavier than rocks, I got too much going on
I gotta bid for college, sorry but that's wrong
I'm too busy soaring higher than an Eagle
That's what the PO said but fuck man that's evil

I'm just a little drunk on the edge
Think I'll tip into the shoulder with some shots to the head
Fuck the fast lane, take it slow and steady
Ease into the music as we're getting kinda heady
I'm Chilling, Relaxing, Playing what I'm playing
Bump the bass with me if you're feeling what I'm saying
Kick it back, I'm feeling my buzz
Busy like a bee as I'm high like a god
Got some next level shit on my wishlist
I better behave if Imma ever get it
Lemme list off the top little gifts
A baggie, a doubie, and maybe a spliff

A honey, some bunnies, a whole flock of hens

Still barking up a tree not knowing its a dead end

Hounding hounding, breathing in the blood
I may fly in the sky but I'm rolling in the mud

Rolling in the mud, my face is phasing out
Grinning like a dumbass as shit starts to head south
I ain't seizing yet, ,no foaming at the mouth
Just taking my time I'll die some time, oh well
Spitting rhythm and the blues
Spitting phlegm and hot fire
Spitting up in the toilet
Spitting like I'm rolling in a tire
*spit noise*

To Turn Up by Djay U4RIA

A Goodbye

Lately I've had to make decisions that I didn't want to. Besides paying for a lawyer with someone else's money, I asked Blue to block me. It was wrong of me to ever say she's bad for me, however I react to her, it's not her fault or intention. I did it slightly out of guilt as well. The only time I ever try to talk to her is when I'm lonely or want advice, not because I'm interested in anything to do with her. Well, I am, but that's not the intention when I hit her up. It's not fair to her, whether she has something better to do or not. Fuck, I keep calling g him her. He's a homosexual boy in a girl's body. Can be confusing, I know. I also asked her to block me because I felt myself returning to a shell that I used to hide in. Wanting to bother her just to talk to her. Because when I talk to her I don't feel alone. That's how my mind works, it's reaction based and while I've turned off some I've never been able to turn that one off. And the thing is, say he doesn't respond for 5 minutes, I feel devastated. But, his problems aren't mine and I have no right to make them his. He probably has enough already. Goodbye Robin, I hope one day I'll have calmed down enough that we can be friends like we used to, but until then I don't want to go into the hole that I clawed my way out of, or try to drag you into it with me. And thank you for blocking me, things ended on a good note this time.

RIP

Pineal flexing ,I'm ripped in the mind
Rip before my time, rip was daddy's sign
Rap is the game I'm playing for now
Pour me another fore the lights go out
For today was a good day
I kicked back, lit one up, good blaze
Got a cap on my head and a new craze
If you really think I'm fronting, you bluffing
You can't be serious, I'm something to your nothing
I got substance, and some words for you
When you think that you big but can't fit your shoes
You just, gotta grow, gotta get old
Gotta leave behind the anger that you too well know
It might blow, but hard work pays off
I work my day job for my money, didn't cough
Didn't stutter, no mutter, I got fired, another
Bout to find me a new one that's better than the offer
I've been offered, deals with the devil
Sealing my soul to live better, to revel
I had to take a few, wasn't hard to choose
Living at home beats jail house blues
I wouldn't fit in, they got animals in there
Not a field trip but something to fear
Living in a cage will just build on my rage
Leave a change man, not a man, but a beast
Pardon me, Pretty please, I can't become this
I gotta find my future not die in the abyss
About to apply for ivy league scholarships
But my GPA's dead I gotta test to get in

Godly, empowered, betrayers are devoured
Judas, Brutus, Cassius, Call em political activists
Call em deceivers but their sins aren't unique
A lust for power, that dirty greed
It's what defines man, as I've defined me
Only loyal to me, and my family
Brothers, sisters, lords of most high
Come down from the heavens to dance tonight
To revel in life, for that's why I live
I'm not here to do what you bid
These words are now spoken and will travel great length
To reach those worth wasting the breath in good taste
I'm no ordinary man, but then again who is
I seek to eek out my own existence
All it needs is substance, my meaning's my own
But these idols and lench mobs condemn what I condone
Condescend, but father they don't know what they do
Although in your name it's not focused on you
Let history speak, the crusades, the middle east
It is money and land not peace that they seek
I absolve myself of the crimes I commit
Can't continue on this journey if I hold regret
Mistakes have been made, can't deny but admit
Only can learn, grow in wisdom and wit

I dream of Valhalla, of Nirvana,of balance
I got biblical but who doesn't at this
In the end I'm just a kid with dreams, dreams, more dreams
Of a perfect world, eyes open, not what it seems
It's a goal unrealistic, gotta say fuck reality
To accept it is hard, life's such a tragedy
To grow up thinking the sun will always shine
To go to bed at night with a bright light in your eyes
Then smacked with the hard truth, a truth seemingly unreal
That we all live in a world that can't feel
When societies dominated by data and graphs
Where numbers do matter, not heart and contact
The indigo tribe will rise to combat
With words not fist, with wisdom not tact
But a perfect world never could be
Without imperfections what would be me
Mistakes make the man, and I've been sculpting for years
Let go of regret as I shed my tears
If I'm to become what I'm destined to be
I need to make a change in society
But change is a hard flap of the wings
If a butterfly caused hurricanes you need a turbine at least
I need a bottle and a light to sleep well at night now
Can't partake of either if I don't want to go to jail

Need a job at ups to work on my delivery
Never made no cash cause I'm tryna get my liberty
Liberate the mind cause the body's just a cage
Liberation time, but I'm underpaid
Underwear? No it's outerwear
I don't even fucking care
Leave me be to be a me
Not another clone of society
Just a kid to relax, redose, relapse, repose
Resuscitate and masturbate
Cop a zip roll it in a grape
Feeling great, good time to unwind
Talk about my feelings, all in good time
The biggest imprisonment's the illusion of freedom
So what the fuck is America found on then
Big Business, Big Bitches, Big houses full of windows
More rooms than there's people, more inches than a kid grows
I ain't looking for that life
Give me a cabin in the woods, a fancy skinning knife
A good book to read and a warm place to sleep
Don't need a mansion when I've got me

Fuck this day it's the same as before
I woke up, died, tomorrow reborn
Relaxed about the day cause there's no problems yet
This shit just started, so no regrets
Gonna do what I gotta do, get what I want
Never behind even though I don't front
Got this game to run like monopoly
Gonna reintegrate my mind at ease
Never had a problem that I couldn't solve
Never had shit that I considered a loss
I may be linked in with my pleather couch
But I'm not an aesthetic, not what I'm about
About to be collegebound, coming round
It's that time of year where you gotta buckle down
But Imma unbuckle my seatbelt, get out of the ride
Go to the shoulder to vomit through my eyes
I don't need that shit, no stress no worries
No seeds, no stems, no mids, not blurry
Imma run this shit when I hit 25
Can't do that from a car, I can't even drive
Got my permit pulled, no stickshift for me
I'm all automatic on this shit, you'll see

I got one in the chamber
Two to the head
Third eye blind
And a quarter in the sack

I been puffing on the green since a young un
If you feel what I'm saying better burn one
Burn three, one for each eye
Kick back now and enlighten your mind
Rewind, back to a better day
When kids got siced over mickey ds
When phones weren't life, good food every night
No veggies please, Fuck broccoli
Now it's work work work and no play
It's gotta go to college no way
More busy try a get paid
Success is my own, so I'm rapping today

I got one in the chamber
Two to the head
 Third eye blind
And a quarter in the sack
That's one in the chamber
Two to the head
Third eye blind
And quarter in the sack

I'm not a feeestyler, barely even a rapper
I'm a writer, accused child molester
But I'm better, than the title or the name
I'm busy playing the game , but you knew this
Nobody knows what the truth is
I spit lies, I spit rhythm and the blues
I spit money into your pocket, you
I ain't a part of the business, Fuck the company
Not tryna be famous fuck celebrities
Just tryna get made, need to get paid
I ain't playing no motherfucking game
Personal success, that's the key
And I lost my key ring when I was down at the beach
Now I gotta find it, where do I go
When I might go to jail for, for who knows
How long, is the system gonna take me
I've been prepared but not ready for society

I got one in the chamber
Two to the head
Third eye blind
And a quarter in the sack
That's one in the chamber
Two to the head
Third eye blind
And a quarter in the sack

I ain't here to do what I'm s'posed to
Not a role model, fuck that, I do
Just tryna live my life like I want to
Tryna live the life I was born to
Tryna be the king that I always thought I was
When I was a kid, as every kid does
I ain't here to do wrong, not a criminal yet
Lived my life fine no need to repent
I've been called liar, sinner, shit
I've been loyal, a leader, yes
I've been, I've been here
Loving the moment with nostalgic tears
Not about to lose 10 years to stress
I'm under duress to live for someone else
But it's my life, my choice, my body, my voice
My thoughts that direct where I'm going to be tomorrow
Not yours, I only lead not follow