RIP

Pineal flexing ,I'm ripped in the mind
Rip before my time, rip was daddy's sign
Rap is the game I'm playing for now
Pour me another fore the lights go out
For today was a good day
I kicked back, lit one up, good blaze
Got a cap on my head and a new craze
If you really think I'm fronting, you bluffing
You can't be serious, I'm something to your nothing
I got substance, and some words for you
When you think that you big but can't fit your shoes
You just, gotta grow, gotta get old
Gotta leave behind the anger that you too well know
It might blow, but hard work pays off
I work my day job for my money, didn't cough
Didn't stutter, no mutter, I got fired, another
Bout to find me a new one that's better than the offer
I've been offered, deals with the devil
Sealing my soul to live better, to revel
I had to take a few, wasn't hard to choose
Living at home beats jail house blues
I wouldn't fit in, they got animals in there
Not a field trip but something to fear
Living in a cage will just build on my rage
Leave a change man, not a man, but a beast
Pardon me, Pretty please, I can't become this
I gotta find my future not die in the abyss
About to apply for ivy league scholarships
But my GPA's dead I gotta test to get in

Godly, empowered, betrayers are devoured
Judas, Brutus, Cassius, Call em political activists
Call em deceivers but their sins aren't unique
A lust for power, that dirty greed
It's what defines man, as I've defined me
Only loyal to me, and my family
Brothers, sisters, lords of most high
Come down from the heavens to dance tonight
To revel in life, for that's why I live
I'm not here to do what you bid
These words are now spoken and will travel great length
To reach those worth wasting the breath in good taste
I'm no ordinary man, but then again who is
I seek to eek out my own existence
All it needs is substance, my meaning's my own
But these idols and lench mobs condemn what I condone
Condescend, but father they don't know what they do
Although in your name it's not focused on you
Let history speak, the crusades, the middle east
It is money and land not peace that they seek
I absolve myself of the crimes I commit
Can't continue on this journey if I hold regret
Mistakes have been made, can't deny but admit
Only can learn, grow in wisdom and wit

I dream of Valhalla, of Nirvana,of balance
I got biblical but who doesn't at this
In the end I'm just a kid with dreams, dreams, more dreams
Of a perfect world, eyes open, not what it seems
It's a goal unrealistic, gotta say fuck reality
To accept it is hard, life's such a tragedy
To grow up thinking the sun will always shine
To go to bed at night with a bright light in your eyes
Then smacked with the hard truth, a truth seemingly unreal
That we all live in a world that can't feel
When societies dominated by data and graphs
Where numbers do matter, not heart and contact
The indigo tribe will rise to combat
With words not fist, with wisdom not tact
But a perfect world never could be
Without imperfections what would be me
Mistakes make the man, and I've been sculpting for years
Let go of regret as I shed my tears
If I'm to become what I'm destined to be
I need to make a change in society
But change is a hard flap of the wings
If a butterfly caused hurricanes you need a turbine at least
I need a bottle and a light to sleep well at night now
Can't partake of either if I don't want to go to jail