I Hate My Confusion

So I've been confused as fuck lately. I know she doesn't like me. I honestly know that she doesn't. But all my head ever says is that she likes you. And I keep thinking about her. She's all I can think about now. Shit happened and I now I can't stop thinking of her. Then I have my friend comeover and he plays thinking about you by Frank Ocean and now that song is stuck in my head because I sympathize with that song. Even though I strongly dislike it I do. Only problem is I don't wonder if she thinks about me, I know she doesn't. Then there's another song that I listen to that makes me think of her which is Acting Up by G Eazy. Simply because I keep telling her I'm going to stop doing something but I haven't. That's also part of why I can't stop thinking, I delivered a promise to stop until the end of the school year, a promise I hope to keep. I guess you can call it a pledge. But this time I am going to change and I need to grow up. Another reason why I keep thinking of her when I listen to Acting Up is because I act immature too often. Way more often than I should. If anything she's probably disappointed in me. But she starts making these status updates after I made my promise that confuse the fuck out of me. Like I said, I know that they're not about me but my head keeps saying they are. And yea, I know it's an hour late. I fell asleep and woke up around 12:30. No I didn't forget about the blog.