Last For A While

This depression is killing me, my life torn to shreds

In a literal sense, no it's not nothing physical yet

My tears dried years times ago

I see her and my mind shouts no

But my heart shouts yes and pushes me on

My mind shut off my body goes on

She tells me no, but I hear a yes

Not from her but it's from my head again

No matter what I think I know words are words

And I just wish that I thought they were

But my mind says no that it can't be true

The beautiful Blue must be in love with you

But then she says wait, her words are true

So who do I listen to me or you

But wait who's you, who's reading this

I know who's this for but it's probably worth shit

I just want her to be in my life

Don't care whether she's my friend or wife

I just want her, I just need her

My life is empty if it doesn't have her.

So she and I are talking again but I wrote this when I wrote yesterday's post. I'm not sad, naaa. Like loving her isn't all that painful, at least she's still my friend. But these days I had like a burst of artistic inspiration from being saddened over her. I even managed to add more pages to a book that I've been writing because it's a dark story and I could add to it. I stopped just because I got bored and didn't have a drive to work on it more. But here's the probable last for awhile of quality rap that I've written. It's this type of stuff that amazes me that rappers manage to release a record a year.