Awww Fuck It!

So Bandgeek, in case you're reading this. I probably already know the answer that you're going to give me. And this isn't cliche but stolen from Blue, where I've been getting all "my" good ideas from recently. But I figure, might as well ask for the heck of it. I was planning to ask today anyways.

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Will you go out with me Bandgeek?



And in case it wasn't clear, the expected answer is no cause you said you see relationships as drama. Also cause you said you enjoy being single. Also cause I'd imagine I really creep you out.

I Just Love Other Cultures, Especially Their Food

So for those that know me, you probably think I'm fat. Well I am, and I'm really gluttonous when it comes to cultural food. I just love other cultures, and it's not just because I'm white. And the thing is, the most I know about other cultures is sadly their food. Like when I'm hanging with my friends if they aren't white I tend to ask them about the things that their parents do cause of their race. For example, one of my hispanic friend's mother believes in ghosts and can get scared on Dia De Las Muertos (Day of the Dead) because of something that happened one of the years. But anyways, I just love cultural food. I've tried Bengali food, really want to try Mongolian BBQ, love hot pot, and love going to one of my friends house cause my favorite salad is Pico De Gallo. I could talk for paragraphs about all the food I eat that isn't American "Culture." I live right by a Thai restaurant that got me addicted to curry. And cause a lot of the cultural foods that I eat are from Latin America and Asia, I got a really big taste for spicy. Trust me, you don't want to see me by any Chorizo and be told I can eat it. Because I will take you seriously, take the plate, platter, whatever's in it, and leave.

What the Fuck is Intelligence, And Why Does It Have To Matter So Much

So yea, I just hate how people compare themselves to each other with who is smarter. WHO THE FUCK CARES. Like I'll occasionally accidentally talk down to people, but I apologize. It's those people that talk about street smarts, book smarts, that we could really use less of. For example, one of my friends practically every conversation I have with him is about whether he actually is smart or not. Like he'll go on about him getting straight A's in all his normal classes, and how he takes IQ tests all the time. That doesn't mean shit to me, and probably won't mean all that much to job interviewers. Seriously, think about it. Which would you rather have, some guy that all he ever talks about is that he's not the idiot everyone thinks he is and that he's actually quite smart, or someone that has an actually personality and is of average intelligence. Also there's the fact that IQ tests can be cheated on, and grades are easier than you'd think to get up. And then I have those other friends that think just cause of the class they're in, Hrrmm my class, that they're smart. I can name quite a few that are dumb as shit. Like did you know that Albert Einstein dropped out of school, he never finished. But we hail him as one of the smartest people to walk this fucked up planet. And then those people that get mad at being called stupid, well as far as I'm concerned they can go suck my fucking dick. I call them stupid not just cause they at least act and seem like it but also because they care so much about whether they actually are. Like I realize some people really care about this, so I know how to get on their nerves when they piss me off. Just like how I know to call a homophobic person gay.

This Time My Brother's the One That Pissed Me Off

So lately my brother and I get along pretty well. But today he's just pissed me off. Not only did he not go to work. But I go down to a basement that I happen to use also and find a giant fuckin' mess and one of his friends sleeping down there. Now I can excuse the friend cause he's homeless. BUT THE MESS!, OH MY FUCKING GOD HE'S CLEANING UP THAT MESS!! It just pisses me off. Cause I practically live down there, and only sleep in my room. That means I don't like it when he trashes it. What I do is while he's at work I hang out down there, do my weights down there. And I actually sleep down there because I got nothing else better to do. But I can't do that right now cause he couldn't tell me. If he did I would have made plans. AW FUCK!

I'm Just Feeling Spiritual Lately, and I'm Not Talking Religion

So I have really been feeling the mysticallity in me going up, and I'm not saying I've been high lately. No, I've had many dreams that seemed like premonitions. And as I said earlier, I've also had a image, my first. And what I really want to do is learn how to read auras. And for those of you who are noobs to this Aura is the energy that people radiate, and  chi is the energy that flows within. I'm not getting this from any video game for the record. So anyways, also you can read peoples personality to learn about their personality. Pretty much if their aura's white, they're the super innocent type, and if their aura's black, they've been evil since birth. And your aura ends up being affected by who they're near, and what they wear. If you have a orangy, yellowish, red aura you have anger issues. Green is envious. These colors have actually been recorded to correspond with emotions. And then if you wear and eat red a lot, your temperment gets altered slowly toward being more raging. But having the ability to read an aura makes it easier for you to tell when they're lying. It would just be so cool to be able to see. Oh and Chi is also called Chakra. An aura's color is defined by how open your chi paths are.

My Mind's Eye, I Can't Believe I'm Starting To Preach This Stuff

So you know the whole entire 6th sense and inner eye crap that psychics like to shove down our throats. Well the thing is it's not totally fake. It's because a lot of this is influenced by intelligence, and as I've heard it also get's amplified by marijuana. Did you know that in China they actually go looking for kids with telekinetic (can move things with their mind), prophetic (can see the future), and telepathic (can read other minds) abilities. That's because Asia is at a higher stage in evolution. And they've actually found people with those abilities. Like the whole entire stereotype about Asians being smarter isn't totally false. Even though the first man appeared in Africa, more evolution has gone on in Asia. That's because in Asia it was able to flourish with the fact that not every country is at war 24/7 and has starving children. And also, you know how when you're walking you get a feeling that you're being watched, that is the actual sixth sense. Although for some people it's just paranoia. But I have been able to tell when people are watching me sometimes. And I have somewhat of a psychic ability. Most people brush dreams off but what happens in my dreams, if realistic enough, I believe them. I also take stuff that happens in the ones I can remember as warnings of bad and good to come. And I have had dreams that have come true, you know the whole entire Deja Vu shit, about 25 times at this point. Also,  when I wake up sometimes an image appear in my head, like I actually saw a Facebook conversation that never happened yet. But I didn't have enough time to scan it and know when it supposedly happened. I'm pretty sure it said it happened today. And I'm never going to try to move stuff with my mind. But once or twice I thought I had some telepathic ability, because once I was pretty sure I shouted WHAT! in my head and my dad heard, cause he responded. And other things influence it. Like meditation. I don't do it a lot cause I don't know the right method, but calm amplifies your abilities. Also I don't know if I've said this on here before but caffeine. Now I'm not saying that it gives you dreams that'll come true, just some pretty nice dreams. I mean it practically forces your sub-conscious to dream. What you do is you drink an energy drink (I prefer AMPS, or Monsters) or a can of Dr. Pepper (something along those lines) before you go to sleep. Because it takes about 10 to 30 minutes to take effect depending on what's in your stomach it shouldn't keep you up if it's right before bed. And then, while sleeping you're mind is woken up, but not to the point of reawakening the whole body because of the caffeine. And I have had some of the coolest and craziest dreams cause of it. But Tarot cards are just a load of shit. I believe in luck, partially cause I'm a luck bastard. But Tarot cards are too random.  

Due to the giant size of this post I will have multiple pictures to make up for it. It's just something I feel somewhat strongly about.

The meditation picture is from Buddhist culture showing the 9 pathways of enlightenment or something. And if you guys watched Avatar the Last Airbender the 9 things that Aang had to open up are based off of that.

Facing Your Fears, Yes I Realize The Cheeziness

Everybody is scared of something, no one is without fear, it's just some can hide it better than others. I personally can do it somewhat well because I don't fear physical things as much as I do the emotional shit. Like the dark it's nothing. Now I'll admit that after watching a horror movie I'm not initially scared, I get scared around 3 hours afterwards where it's had time to sink in. And then that will only last a day or two. But plain old darkness can't do it. I have to hear some loud abrupt noise and I won't jump, I'll punch. Once on Halloween I punched a guy right in the chest for scaring me in a Haunted House, and it wasn't intentional my hand just shot out. I would literally let a wolf that I've never seen before walk up to me, and if it snarls I will wrestle it for a while until I get a good chance to hit it in the face with my elbow. And no, that's not me being my cocky, snide self. I tend to not care that much about getting physically hurt, I do the wacky and crazy stunts and pain is more mental than physical. And also I got a good enough muscle mass to beat the shit out of some dumb mutt that's decided it's going to try to eat my face, and I also know some basic techniques to fighting. But the emotional stuff can really get me. Things like people dying no, I mean like talking to the girl I like. I can't just walk up to her, I need to see someone else down there and then I walk up. Of course since school's out I can't do that but oh well. What I'm really scared of right now is either fucking up with her somehow, or asking her out and getting told what I'd expect, no. Now that would be my worst fears come true. God I hate angst.

Yes Another Post About A Girl

I'm making this post, well frankly I don't know why. Like yeah the girl I invested quite a bit into despite the fact that she highly disliked me and was creeped out by me is out of my head. I could care less about her now. And it's cause I started liking another girl. And what worries me is that people already know who it is I like, 3 of my friends, although closer, already guessed who it was. And boy is this girl nice, passionate, creative, sexy, ... But I don't wanna start coming off/becoming obsessed with her. Blue already told me that I'm already starting to talk about her like I did my last crush. But the thing is, at this point if I ever decided to start talking to her, I know I don't have to worry about being judged straight to my face, or getting told off for stuff. It's pretty much already been a great Summer vacation for me. Who knows, maybe I'll actually get with this girl. Then again it's really foolish to expect it with the fact that I never get the girl. I just have that creepy, wacko look to me. It really REALLY doesn't help. Especially now that my head is shaved it makes it harder to look attractive to her. And in case your reading this, I left a clue in here that you'll notice if I ever talk to you.

I Love Being a Jackass and a Troll, Most of the Time

So I pissed Blue off, by quite a bit. What I did was I told her I took a shit off of a 10 story balcony aiming for a guys face and missed by a little bit. Now I told her that I thought she'd find it funny, but that kinda blew up in my face. She's told me to treat her like one of the guys though, and honestly that's what guys find funny. Anything at all to do with feces in someone else's face is hilarious. I was making my cousin and uncle laugh at it. But anyways I was doing stuff from the 10 story balcony. It overlooked a beach and there was a nice strolling path also. So I decided, I know I'll throw "Pop-its", you know those things that when you throw them on the ground they make a loud snap. Well I was tossing handfuls, and boy was it funny. I was throwing them at crowds and one turned out to have a baby in it and it started crying. So someone shouts up at me( but can't see me ) "THANKS A LOT YOU FUCKING JACKASS!!!", so while my brother is apologizing I shout back down, "HEY WATCH YOUR FUCKING LANGUAGE AROUND KIDS ASSHOLE!!!" And I was just laughing my ass off. There were some other ventures I had, I was throwing water balloons off and almost hit a couple of people. I was also just tossing them into the beach and watch the pits get made. There was also some other things I did, one was we made a sand penis on the beach , sad thing is it was too hard, he hard, to make a huge one so the one we made was about 3 feet. Oh well. And as for my trolling adventures I'll post the links to a couple omegle chat logs that I had. And for a reference, the "Magical Iguana Of Love" is a Trademark of Blue The Alien Warrior. And Blue, in case you're reading this, I really am sorry for thinking you'd find me taking a shit on a guys face funny.

http://logs.omegle.com/ac1fc2a

http://logs.omegle.com/f794df

Family Isn't What I Live For

So you go to a ghetto or hang with an African American family and you know how special family is to them. Just watch, if you ask most of them will say they'd do anything for family. Well I wouldn't. I'm going to a wedding this weekend, which just warning all my many imaginary viewers, that I might end up missing a day with a post cause I'll be too busy roaming the boardwalk with my cousins. I'm staying at a hotel right on the beach also. But I don't exactly enjoy hanging with my cousins anymore, at least with my aunts, uncles, and grandparents around. I use to, but then again I was 5 years old. And then my close family, not extended, means a little more than shit to me. My dad obviously doesn't have much of any sentimental value to me, but my mom and brother I couldn't care that much about either. And trust me, I take advantage of all of them, and for those that know me with a dirty mind, NOT THAT WAY! I'm just one of those distant types. And emotions I feel will only hold me back from my goals I try to willingly hold back. And normally it works but recently I think my hormones have just been overdrive with all the whining about girls I've done this year. Being heartbroken is not the way to do be when working.

Movies

I pretty much watch movies and shows on Netflix 24/7. I don't really pay much attention to actually T.V. that I have to watch with a cable or satellite connection because I have Netflix. But recently I've started to watch a lot of those sentimental sports movies and I don't know why but I just love them. For example, on I think Monday night I saw The Blind Side and Gridiron Gang, and just couldn't stop watching them. Stayed up til' 3 the next day watching them. And a couple days ago I saw The Longest Yard and Remember the Titans. They're just so great. I just wanna see some that aren't football. And I LOVE comedies though, I can never get enough of them . The ones that I can are horrors, they don't scare me at first but start to scare me later on. It just sticks in my head. Especially zombie ones. Zombieland scared the shit out of me the night after I saw it.

I Got a Facebook Page

So I decided to copy the great and ingenious Blue, and get a facebook page. This is where I'll do my retarded and comedic picture posts. But I do really hate doing memes. Probably just repost pictures from other pages. I didn't know what to call it, as in is it an author or what, so I called it an author because I'm the author of a blog. I don't plan on having any admins although I wouldn't mind having Blue as one. This page is also to commemorate that it has been now exactly 2 months since I got a blog, and I'm almost at 500 views WOOT! So yea, please like. I don't expect to get to 100 anytime soon though. And things posted on page will be somewhat exaggerated just for laughs. Such as putting something that implies I jack off all day.


https://www.facebook.com/pages/CaucasianAzn/120640914742373?skip_nax_wizard=true#

Conversing the Conversation

So, pretty much I suck at conversations, especially the openers. I can only easily talk to about 5 people on facebook, and that's just because I talk to them a lot. I just need to get a feel for it, figure out how to talk to them. If I don't it's just awkward cause I can't think of a way to keep the conversation going. Also because it's not as comfortable, for example I chat with Blue all the time. And the openers can be totally random and they become a conversation. What I found out is a great conversation for guys when they're talking to a girl is asking that out. This I found out after my friend asked 5 girls out for me over Facebook. But with 2 of them the conversations just got awkward, really fast. It's a little hard for me to keep conversations going. But when they die, I try to keep them going with some cheap jokes. Like really I can't talk easily to girls. I can talk to some, but I think it's cause they're tomboys. They're more of a bro than anything else. And the other thing is if we haven't sent a message after 15 minutes I'd go derp. I didn't know what derp meant and it turns out it's something you say to an annoying or stupid comment. I feel so embarassed.

Why Should I Be Thankful

So, today is Father's day. A day to celebrate our glorified fathers. Who as kids(if you're a dude) you'd idolize, then as you get older you grow to hate. Why should I celebrate mine. He insults my friends, he acts like a douche every chance he gets, he's just a horrible person in general. I don't act like an ass in public, such as telling women off for leaving a cart somewhere. I also don't talk to little kids I don't know, in front of their parents much less, which probably scares the shit out of them cause they'll be thinking, "Is he a pedophile?" Obviously my father still has stuff to learn about what's appropriate in public. Some of my friends tell me that I need to also, but I do know what's appropriate for public, but I don't consider school public. Also with strangers I honestly don't give a fuck as much as with people I know. For example, when I'm bored and walking somewhere I'll flash cars showing off the manboobs. But anyways back to my dad, he's been in and out of the hospital for a while which explains his social issues. But he still can't go around like that. Once we were at Hooters, yes I know, and he literally invited a waitress over. WHAT THE FUCK!!! So yea, why should I be thankful for a totally fucked up and retarded dad that apparently loves me but can't listen to me when I tell him not to do this in public when I'm around.

Hello

So today for those of you that don't go to school with me I am posting a link to this retarded blog for my class. So hello to everyone that probably won't read this. And just to say most of these posts are retarded, and I didn't really have much to write about. My raps are okay. The posts about, well you know, are on a emotional extreme and to let you know, crap like that isn't common coming out of me. And also, I'm pretty sure I'm finally over her. And you know what else, I don't expect to be thought of differently. Some stuff is going to make you guys rethink the way I've been treated by you but most of you guys are such stubborn douches it won't matter. Also, I'm not trying to grab pity, and I do somewhat feel I am misunderstood by most of you. But I don't think I'm a only a victim, because of some of the most retarded treatment received from some of you I victimized others, including my friends. And for that I'm sorry. Hope you guys can come to my party (assuming you would come), and not just because it's probably going to be a fail.

Relationships

So one of my better friends, Blue, is/was in a relationship. She really liked this guy and told him and he thought of YOLO so he said yes. And then on Friday I heard he was planning to break it off, cause she didn't treat it like much of a relationship and it didn't seem like she knew how to be a girlfriend. He thought she didn't know how to show emotion. I got mad, I told him that it's cause it's Blue. And she goes by that because she is the emotional type. Blue is the color of emotion. She doesn't like to show emotion though, and who said she had to. When he was in his first relationship they didn't exactly seem like a couple so why does it matter. Like yea, they sat together and talked, but they weren't like McDonalds and his girlfriend. They sat together, laughed, she sat in his lap. It was hard to forget. So I told him if he makes Blue sad in the slightest bit I'll beat the shit out of him. And yesterday I found out she decided to break it off with him too. So now I don't have to worry. She sees it as more of them being best friends rather than a couple also. They good.

Party Update

Chances are 100 : 1 that my party will be a success. But then again, I'm not popular, and never had a party before. The worst part at this point is it'll probably be a sausage fest, because all the girls think of me as a super creep. I had a couple that might have showed up but their parents said no. But my party will be somewhat beast when it happens. Imma have some wacky stuff though like playing baseball with apples, having a giant fire in my backyard, and fitting 20 people into a tiny townhouse. The best part is, I got my parents to pay for everything without them knowing, because I went to Costco saying I was buying stuff for them.

Now I don't know if this fits but oh well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KQ6zr6kCPj8

Reconciling, Something I Really Didn't Expect I'd Do

So lately me and my friends that we'd practically be at each other throats all the time have made up. Like for example my one friend, MrUnnoticableBrownGuy or something we'd be at each others throats. Then when I finally got to stay over  we were a little tighter then and at 3 in the morning we're playing zombies on the Xbox and I go "You know what makes me happy man, that we don't fight as much" and it sounded like I was so frickin' high. And the thing is it did, I don't like fighting 24/7. Then McDonalds, and this makes me really sad cause of my slam rap that I posted yesterday, and I are cool now. We didn't fight, mostly cause we stopped acting like douches to each other. And for a future reference in case any classmates will soon be reading this, the rap some of it I just put in for a rhyme. Like it's nice not being at each other's throats. Now I just have to somewhat make up with 1 more, the fat crybaby. And this kid, now he's a total cunt. He keeps acting like a dick to me, just because I made him cry in class. At this point I can't say anything back either, and trust me I could really burn him because he sucks at slamming people, but I can't risk him crying. But kinship is good.

McDonalds the Pussy

So I had a good one that I made on Sunday in the shower while I was getting pumped for my fight with him but as I stated in my previous post, I don't normally remember them. So I guess you'll be stuck with this crappy written one. I'd record and post it but that means showing my Youtube account. Still trying to remain super anonymous. Some of it still sounds good though. And I only had to write one line with a rhyming dictionary. I made an okay rap about math transformations. Then I got told it was only good because I was working with a black guy, I wrote the whole thing except for 2 lines. And I just spat it off pretty fast. Got told to slow down. DAMN. Oh and also sorry to any African American readers I may have for using the "N" word, but that's actually how I talk. Along with saying shit like fool. I talk "black."

So you think that you're muscly but you ain't got no strength 

Cause you'll cry like a bitch when I hit you in the face

Even though you're faster you're a cocky bitch

Who's best friend, is a snitch

You hang out with that fat faggot

Who can't accept it, and damnit

I might as well beat him up to

Too bad he's a pussy just like you

Just watch on Wednesday you won't show up

Cause you're afraid that I'll fuck you up

You better wish I call 911

Cause if I don't Nigga you'll be done

You'll die when you drown in your blood

And you realize that you aren't a stud

Who the fuck mocks his girl's best friend

Your relationships at a dead end

It's dumb to base it on sex

And what should I mock you for next

Oh I know, you're a blonde

Of saying durrr, you are fond

Cause you're stupid, realize it

After that, deal with it

Honestly we don't need idiots

So die in a ditch for the benefit

Of the whole world, you're wasting air

Now get the fuck OUT OF HERE!

BITCH THIS IS YOU

NIGGA I JUST BURNED YOU

Costco

Derp, the Caucasian Azn is sad today, for about 2 weeks he's been drawing a blank on what to write about daily and practically my daily posts are just ramblings. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have a slam rap about McDonalds (the kid not the crappy food place) So I'm going to talk about Costco, a place where I get almost all of my stuff from. Especially since I have an upcoming party mmmm; dip, cinnamon apples, chicken wings, hotdogs, etc. But what I hate is I can't go in by myself and buy all the food, I need my dad or mom to come with me or else they don't let me pay at the cash. And my dad can't get it through his thick fucking skull and always tells me to try and get through without him. Well obviously I don't look like a scrawny, beat-up, old geezer. Also I don't  look even close to 50 or much less 18 which I'd need to be to even have a credit card. My dad just pisses me off like that. But what annoys me the most is the lack of decision that you can make in with the butcher(you don't see him but the meat that they put out). Like I love steak, but they don't have the ones I want. Oh well, gonna work on a rap, going to be hard due to me being a good freestyler, but I don't write it down and when I freestyle I forget most of everything I just said, right after it.

Projects

I was always one to hate projects. Mostly because when I did them it was the day before they're due and bottom rate. A.K.A. a horrible grade. But what's even more retarded is doing ones at the end of the year, that's just plain stupid. Like book reports I get, but stuff that can take 2 weeks, nu uh. They know that students like to do stuff last minute, which means why would they assign a project at the end of the school year. People won't even have a lot of time because they'll be too busy hanging with friends they don't see a lot during the summer and doing other things. Oh well.

Getting Laid

So at this point in my life, this is probably all that I'd ever dare think about, losing my virginity and getting off. But the thing is if I date a girl I don't wanna start off with sex as soon as possible. When I told my friends one said he's proud of me, and that pissed me the fuck off because that is just showing how he judged me to be. I always saw sex as a way to keep a relationship going, not as a way to get it started. I'm totally fine with one night stand though, as long as it looks safe and that it's definite I'll never see them again. Which I can't get at this age. I want a real relationship, which also is why I'm pissed at myself because I literally like a girl just for her tits. Not only does it go against my morals but also because it makes me more like that retard that I'm going to beat the shit out of on Wednesday. He started his relationship that people looked at as a real, serious one just cause he thought he'd get some. And he at this point is only with her cause he wants to fuck. He's a dirtbag and talks shit about his own girlfriend. It's too assholey even for me. I actually will respect a girl's wishes. And he entered the relationship knowing that the girl was really serious about religion. And he acts like a douche to her best friend including slapping her. He also copes feels from his girlfriend. He also sneaks peaks at her friends. If I ever became that I'd wanna check myself into a mental hospital.

Cards

In case you couldn't tell from the title. I have nothing else to fucking talk about today. So pretty much cards are an in and out fad in my class. Right now a quarter of my class are so into YuGiOh that they're willing to buy the cards. We have played other cards though, with playing cards. Egyptian Ratscrew, Capitalism, Poker, and so on. But sadly I somewhat got into YuGiOh. It's not so much buying and collecting as it is having something to do. Honestly I do love YuGiOh, it's fun, but I will not pull them out in public. But it is something to do. Also it's because we played the shit out of all the playing cards games so they aren't interesting at all. I prefer Pokemon cards to YuGiOh, plainly because I had more of them and because I payed way more money on it. But they're all fine games. But YuGiOh and Pokemon, unless you plan to live in Asia, they're pointless to pay for. Or if you're really serious, you could collect authentic rares which can sell from 1 to 100 dollars. But I don't have the time to buy and and look through the cards. Also to look them up on Ebay, Amazon, Craigslist, and a whole bunch of sites to know the worth.

Death

You know that phrase the good die young, well that has been made an example of twice this school year. The first time is when a kid hung himself, the second time was two days ago in a hospital. I didn't know these two kids really well, I just knew that the guy who hung himself, let's call him Corn, was a popular kid. He was also very funny. So you can imagine my shock when I found out Corn had committed suicide. And he was the kid I previously mentioned in one of my earliest posts, this one being about homosexuality being an insult. Now the other person that died, the one in the hospital, was a nice girl. She was in two of my classes this year and probably one of the quietest girls I've ever seen. I didn't have what I would imagine the immense pleasure(from reading the posts about her) of knowing her, but my mom did, she had her as a student. Which is why I say this school year has been an example of the phrase, the good die young. Now I've personally thought of death before, now not this school year, it was when I really had problems with my parents. I'm not saying I don't anymore, trust me it's still there, but it's calmed down. Bullying though, that has never bothered me. Growing up with an older sibling, especially a brother, is welcoming for bullying. It just makes it really easy for me to pick on kids that pick on me.

Am I over her?

So yea, it's another boring post about the girl I like. Well this one is a little interesting. I honestly don't know if I still like her. I think about it daily, especially today because I had a nice 2 mile walk home, and at this point I don't know. I think I may actually like another girl, and after today I know it's just my dick talking. A primal need to fuck some hot chick that I know I would never manage to. And Blue, I'm not telling you who. It's starting to really make me wonder though. Especially cause I think I may like both girls, both which I can't have, both which have great bodies and minds. But like I said, one of them I think it's more my dick than anything else that is telling me, I Like Her.

Irony

I see irony every day. Kids who cry calling me a pussy. Fatasses making fun of other people for being fat. But weird people calling others weird, that's odd. Now I honestly don't give a fuck about getting called weird, I am.  But when it comes from another person that is weird also, not to the extreme but still, it just seems odd. Irony is fun though, and often times kind of funny. Oh wells. And yea, I don't have much to talk about today. I'm fucking running out of stuff to talk about cause things are starting to turn up for me.

Hearsay

So pretty much I hear a whole lot of crap from this douchebag at school. Recently he keeps going, Oh this person from where you used to go to school said you don't have any friends. Well guess what, I don't believe you cause the people you're picking aren't assholes, and you are. Also because you obviously don't know them from some of the stuff you said. I don't need to hear you're retarded crap. But the stupidest part of all is he thinks I'm stupid enough to believe it. Seriously, there's something called facebook where you can check up on people. I really can't wait to beat this douchebags ass in, leave in a pool of blood. I will literally rupture his stomach if he pisses me off enough.

Hanging Out

To get this clear, I don't have anything to talk about today so I'm gonna talk about something I've been doing recently. Hanging out every weekend with my friends. Like when Summer comes my only worry is that we're gonna be hanging around and goofing off so much that we'll run out of wacky crap to do. For example today we went to the pool, something that everyone does during the summer. And after we get there it thunders and we're sent home. When we go back we only have 30 minutes to mess around. But I did do some wacky shit. I was laying down on the bottom of the diving pool and really cracked my ears. Planking off the diving board really hurt. I also almost broke my ankle cause I went down the slide and landed feet first and they kinda bent. Oh well. But we also play video games, Hrrm who doesn't, and some of this shit was funny. We were doing CoD MW3 with 18 guns and I made half of them riot shields and randomized. It was fun just going in and ramming each other with the shields. And of course we had gamer foods, NACHOS. I made some great ones, and got rid of all my leftover taco meat. Yum!

Girlfriends, What I Want But Can't Have

So you avid readers that read my blog, hrmm barely anyone, probably know that I really want to date a girl from previous posts. Well I honestly in the simplest manner, need a girlfriend. I get told by enough people I'm too young to get a girlfriend and don't need one, that I should wait til' I'm older where the girls are more mature, well fuck their advice. And you know why I think I need, not want, a girlfriend, it's the ultimate distraction. Of course I'd be a little sad if when I somehow managed to get one that I still only thought of my dream girl, because I'd try my hardest to put her first and that would make it so I can't. But hanging with friends works, but  I don't talk or hang with them 24/7. And some girls are really cool to hang around with, the kissing and hugging is just an added bonus. For example take my brother's "girlfriend." They aren't officially girlfriend, boyfriend cause he said he doesn't like to think of people as objects, and she's cool with it. And she acts nice enough to me, not like a total whore who keeps going, "Why is he down here?", or "Tell him to go away." and shit. Like he tells me she's coming over, I'm like okay I'll go when I finish this round. He just goes, she's okay with you being down. So in plain, I just think my life would be nicer and easier if I had a girlfriend.

Arrogance, the Downfall of Man

So, arrogant asses tend to highly annoy me. Hehe, alliteration. Well, those people that'll say some of the most retarded shit, prove it wrong, and still stick by it are the worst. For example, someone is always saying they're stronger than you, they're not scared, that they can take you. But when they come at you they use a weapon. It just makes them look like they need it. Or when they say they were holding back so it wasn't their full strength, that is just a load of shit. People don't hold back when they're pissed. And they say it to say they can hit harder,  YEA RIGHT!! This all relates to the kid I plan on fighting. Omg, this is gonna be so fun!! Especially when I tombstone him or do another Muay Thai move that is similar to it. This kid is gonna regret being such a douche all the time. It's funny. Today I had a weird dream when I got home and went to sleep. I dreamt I beat the shit out of the kid, P.S. I don't need to dream to do that, and I was drowning in his pool of blood. And you readers may think that I'm just being cocky, but no. I lift weights for the strength I'd need to kick his ass, and I know how to fight and really hurt them. He is just a scrawny shit, he has some muscle from jacking it and playing baseball. But I can take a hit, pain just makes me laugh.