Family Isn't What I Live For

So you go to a ghetto or hang with an African American family and you know how special family is to them. Just watch, if you ask most of them will say they'd do anything for family. Well I wouldn't. I'm going to a wedding this weekend, which just warning all my many imaginary viewers, that I might end up missing a day with a post cause I'll be too busy roaming the boardwalk with my cousins. I'm staying at a hotel right on the beach also. But I don't exactly enjoy hanging with my cousins anymore, at least with my aunts, uncles, and grandparents around. I use to, but then again I was 5 years old. And then my close family, not extended, means a little more than shit to me. My dad obviously doesn't have much of any sentimental value to me, but my mom and brother I couldn't care that much about either. And trust me, I take advantage of all of them, and for those that know me with a dirty mind, NOT THAT WAY! I'm just one of those distant types. And emotions I feel will only hold me back from my goals I try to willingly hold back. And normally it works but recently I think my hormones have just been overdrive with all the whining about girls I've done this year. Being heartbroken is not the way to do be when working.