Getting Laid

So at this point in my life, this is probably all that I'd ever dare think about, losing my virginity and getting off. But the thing is if I date a girl I don't wanna start off with sex as soon as possible. When I told my friends one said he's proud of me, and that pissed me the fuck off because that is just showing how he judged me to be. I always saw sex as a way to keep a relationship going, not as a way to get it started. I'm totally fine with one night stand though, as long as it looks safe and that it's definite I'll never see them again. Which I can't get at this age. I want a real relationship, which also is why I'm pissed at myself because I literally like a girl just for her tits. Not only does it go against my morals but also because it makes me more like that retard that I'm going to beat the shit out of on Wednesday. He started his relationship that people looked at as a real, serious one just cause he thought he'd get some. And he at this point is only with her cause he wants to fuck. He's a dirtbag and talks shit about his own girlfriend. It's too assholey even for me. I actually will respect a girl's wishes. And he entered the relationship knowing that the girl was really serious about religion. And he acts like a douche to her best friend including slapping her. He also copes feels from his girlfriend. He also sneaks peaks at her friends. If I ever became that I'd wanna check myself into a mental hospital.