100 Posts :D Haven't Missed A Day (There Is A Much Darker Side Of This Post)

Yes, this is post # 100 I'm so excited and it's a double post. Even though I haven't gotten that much more popular. And I haven't missed a day. I've had a daily blog post for 100 days straight. I scared Blue because I started posting early in the morning, like the one that says it was posted on the 22 and 23 because it says it's the wrong day. It pisses me off. And I got a special pic to. This was taken on the 24. It's a 666 photo. In the words of Blue HAIL SATAN. And I just found out that the clocking is about 2 hours behind which is why it looked like I missed a day.

And I must thank Blue. Because she is the one who would remind me to make a post. And she would help me think of post topics. And introduced me to it. I wish more people read this though. 

Now for the darker side. And to say ahead of time, I made the above (minus the and this is a dual post) 3 or 4 days ahead because of the 666 pic.

Yesterday, Blue contemplated suicide and made a post. And it scared the shit out of me. When she told me she decided not to, I was still scared. And when I tried to sleep last night, I couldn't. I just fucking couldn't. It's cause I thought of what I'd do if she did. And I don't know. If I found out through facebook or blogger, assuming it's too late, I'd lock myself in my room. That much I know. But if I found out through a phone call, I'd be breaking shit. And if I found out if there was someone who played a major part in it ( I found out her ex had played a role) I would find them and rip their head off. And that would be after I knocked them out, tied them up, and broke each rib and their face. And then, I'd just find my way home, and sit in my room and cry. It's cause Blue means so much to me. And she's left a permanent mark on me within 1 year. She pulled me out of a hole I practically dug and willingly jumped into when I was obsessed with that chick. She was always there to talk to me. She was always there to listen to me rant. And always put up with the bullshit I would whine about almost anything that I over thought. If anyone threatened her I would be there the first second I could to take care of them. And would do anything for her. And if she were to depart from this fucked up world, there would be a giant void left. One that could never be filled. She is the most important woman in my life right now (not just because I highly dislike my mother) and probably will never be demoted from that spot. And I could never forget her. I would go so far as to get her name tattooed on me if she were to pass. This may sound selfish, but I need her here. And I couldn't take her departing from this world.

o.o On a less serious note, she's probably going to tell me to chill my pussy after she reads this.