"I wrote a goodbye note in lipstick on your arm
When you passed out
I couldn't bring myself to call
Except to call it quits"
So this part I don't relate to that much. I haven't thought on this part that much. It's mostly the refrain that I empathize with. But he's saying he can't bring himself to say goodbye and end things in person because it's too painful for. He couldn't force himself to call things off to her face and had to do it behind a phone or computer.
"Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars"
Now this part, this is the part that I relate to. Atleast the first half. Blue is my best friend, I wouldn't say if she's my ex-friend yet though. But in my opinion, we are better off as lovers. She probably begs to differ though. But hey, who knows. The second part is something about taxis. As you can see I haven't put all that much thought into this one as I did the last one.
"Come hell or high water
Well I'm feeling hot and wet
I can't commit to a thing
Be it heart or hospital"
This I think I can relate to well also. It seems to me that he's saying he doesn't care about the risk, he wants to give into lust. But he has commitment problems and doesn't want them to get fixed. And I did do that. I valued my friendship with Blue more than anything, I still do, but I almost tore it to the point of no return just because I wanted to be more than friends. I got too selfish and self-centered. I didn't understand why she said no either. I still don't, but I've learned not to question people's decisions in most cases. But I do have a commitment problem, despite my love for Blue I still do think of other girls. I still pursue other girls. I'm not proud of it, but what else am I supposed to do. I'm lonely, and she has a boyfriend. But it's also my feelings for her that keep me from pursuing most girls also. I don't want to be dating a girl just because I'm lonely, and not feel anything special for her. I'd be too distracted with feelings for Blue to pay proper attention to the other girl. If I ever managed to get one...
"The tombstones were waiting
They were half-engraved
They knew it was over
Just didn't know the date"
He's saying he knew that what he did was destined to fail from the start, just didn't know how long it would last. But the things had already started to deteriorate. This I don't know how well I relate to it. I guess the idea that Blue and I will never be a thing is really realistic in my head, but I still have the optimism to hope that maybe she just is doing what this one girl told me. She said "Some girls don't move forward in a relationship because they're happy with things as they are". But I highly doubt it. But I know my feelings for her are for true. She helps me to reach my zen, either by talking to me or just being a thought in the back of my head.
"And I cast a spell over the west to make you think of me
The same way I think of you
This is a love song in my own way
Happily ever after below the waist"
Now I don't totally understand this part. I think he's saying he created empathy with her so that she had the same feelings for him. By becoming famous he got her to think of him and this song is his ode to his feelings for her. The last line is something talking about her lust always being satisfied. That part I don't get how to tie it in. I guess I kinda relate to it. I'd do something to get her attention if I could, but there's not much I could do.
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