Nigga She Don't Want You

Sorry for sounding like a dumb stereotypical black man/woman in the title. It's just that's what runs through my head everytime I interact even in the slightest bit with Blue. Not just talking to her on Facebook or seeing her in real life. Just thinking of her I also think of the fact that she doesn't want me in that way. Besides her having a boyfriend I've probably smothered and annoyed the shit out of her to the point where she just sees me as some obsessed fanboy. That's what I feel like. An obsessed fanboy. I keep pursuing her even though it's pretty obvious it's going to get me nowhere. But I still have to be optimistic. If only I could manage to interact with her more in public though. With any person I find it easier to talk to them without looking at them face-to-face. Especially with Blue. In person I always have a shit ton of problems with trying to talk to her unless there's someone else nearby. I'm not confident. Not when I have that beautiful girl to look at. I think what am I doing, why am I still trying, it's pointless. Yet I still do it. But why? Just why? Why do I still try to get her to look at me differently when it all has the same ending for me. I decided I might as well just leave her be for a bit. Hope when I try to talk to her again she welcomes it with open arms. She really is the one girl I'm never going to forget. She really is the one that I hold above everyone else. If only I were that for her...