I don't want this moment to ever end,
Where everything's nothing without you.
I'd wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
The moment he's talking about is talking to or with the girl he likes. In this case I'd assume it's Avril Lavigne, who's now his ex-wife. Me talking to a certain person that anyone that reads this blog knows who it is, well I never want it to end. I want to go back to last year when she and I'd stay up til' 2 or 3 talking. I miss the deep conversations I'd have with her that bonded us. I still remember when she read my blog everyday. She'd remind me when I didn't have a post yet and it was late. Now I'm not sure for this part but I think that this song was written after Avril divorced him, he's saying he misses her and he feels worthless if she's not a part of his life. Again, this is a feel I feel everyday. I feel like I wouldn't be the person I'm now without her, and not having the same friendship and bond I had with her, all my fault, just makes me not see much worth in anything. I'd wait until I'm a 100 year old virgin for her, but I doubt she'd ever change her mind. I was told by another friend I should wait for her, that I really care for her. But I don't know. Me not waiting is because waiting is pain. But I'd do anything to see her smile, her smile is her beauty. She may beg to differ but when she smiles she's more magnificent than the sun. I can't help but smile when I see her smile.
Through it all, I've made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words.
Ok, this part is plain and simple. He's saying that despite the fact that he's been a fuckup in the past he's still going to wait for her. He wants her to believe that what he's saying is true. This is the epitome of what I feel. REGRET. He's expressing regret. I've fucked up plenty with her, but she's forgiven me for it. I think she doesn't think that I can stop fucking up though. I don't know if I can stop fucking up. Love makes you do rash and bold decisions that don't normally have a happy ending to them.
I want you to know,
With everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul.
I'll hold on to this moment, you know,
As I bleed my heart out to show,
And I won't let go.
He's saying that he's being sincere. He misses what he had. And at his last breath, he's still not going to have given up on her. He's going to keep hoping. That right there I don't need to elaborate on how I relate to it. It's plain and simple. I won't give up and keep hoping that maybe she'll change her mind.
Thoughts read, unspoken, forever in vow,
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what I didn't have, so I won't let this go,
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
He's referencing his wedding vows with Avril and the good memories the marriage brought him. Of course those memories stopped bringing happiness to him, only served to remind him of what he lost. Most of all though, he remembers what his life was like before he had her in it and he refuses to forget it so that he knows how special she is to him. Well with Blue, I haven't married her but I have promised things to her. Sadly I haven't been able to keep some of those promises. I just fail in my path of life. Now all I have are memories, mostly good with her. Well all good. She and I only fought once. My only bad memories of her are when I had made her mad and there was a distance between us. But my good memories are in pieces. Reminiscing over the happy times I had talking to her all night only serve to remind me of how far I've fallen. I remember what my life before I started talking to her on a deeper level was like though. It wasn't the happiest when I started talking to her and she was someone to talk to. She helped to get me on the path of happiness and led me out of my despair. But I guess I'm too clingy, because then distance got between us and I started to get sad again. I don't exaggerate when I say she truly is my source of happiness. Other things make me happy. But when I'm hungup on her I'm still dead inside. I just wish she and I were as close as we used to be.
All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go, have come to an end.
He's saying he isn't alone anymore. He has someone. Or did. That's how I felt with Blue, when I started talking to her I didn't feel alone anymore because I had her.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.
I think he's talking about her tears, which look like rain when they fall. Maybe he's saying he's the right one for Avril and she doesn't know what she threw away. But she still wanted to explore the world of people. Through her sadness she failed to notice that he was the one for her. I have to admit. That is how I feel with Blue. I feel like I'm the right guy for her. I'm probably wrong though. I'd just end up fucking it up and things would be worse because she'd never talk to me again. I can't say anything about her sadness getting in the way of things. I haven't really tried to get her to be with me when she's off. Mostly when I'm off.
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