Kryptonite

Yes, Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down. I remember when I first found this song it was through my brother and he was only why I listened to it. There were a lot of songs where I was too young to notice what the lyrics were, just that the song sounded good and listened because my brother did. I knew the lyrics, but not what they meant. Well now down to the song, this was a product of a 15 year old's mind. So I'd have to say it's pretty impressive seeing as it's at that age that mental development is just finishing, but not quite done. He was probably at a depressed state though, one where he felt lonely. I just know when I first heard this song I thought it related to Superman more than it did. There are points that I'll mention that can tie into Superman though.

I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
But I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon

So that's a long ass walk to take, but this is one of those moments where I thought it tied into Superman. But have you ever taken a walk by yourself? In the fresh air? It really does help you sort out your thoughts, especially if you don't have anything to listen to. I used to always think when I walked to friends houses, but now I have music to listen to. Not like it'd help. Last year when I had a thing for that one horrid girl I could still talk to her, Blue I can't. Blue just dumbfounds me without even having to be right in front of me. She makes me socially awkward. Back to the song though. I don't exactly know how to interpret the next two lines after talk about his troubled mind. I'd have to say it has something to do with him not focusing on his physicality anymore and more on his mentality. But, it may also be him saying he doesn't know where he is anymore. Kinda relatable, I really don't know where I am anymore. Not physically of course, but I don't have any plans for the future anymore. I used to have everything thought out but now I'm plan things a day before they happen. Last two are simple, he watched the world fall apart, I think. Maybe it's him saying he is nocturnal, stays up all night. Too deep in thought to sleep, or too addled with terror to be able to sleep. Those nights, those lonely nights I'd spend only wishing I had someone in my arms to call mine, those nights I still have. He's feeling depressed. If you watch the video you'll find the same thing.

I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

He doesn't know what he can do to change his situation. Make himself HAPPY. Or in Superman's case what to do about his weakness. Well I DON'T EITHER. I'm only happy around people. But I'm also sad cause I can't do crap with Blue. Can't initiate small talk, even when she's online. Nothing at all I can possibly do to change my current situation. Of course I'll still try, my hope hasn't died out just yet.

I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don’t mind what happens now and then
As long as you’ll be my friend at the end

There my suspicions confirmed. He is saying he can't sleep at night because he's depressed. Now the last two lines, can't describe the feels they give me. All I want is Blue to be close to me again, close like we used to. But because of my persistence and open pursuit I practically made that impossible. I don't expect to get anywhere with her. But I still want her to be my friend, my dear friend. I remember how over the summer I kept telling her how I was going to have a job and buy her expensive things. That was before she knew about my feelings, and she would've taken the presents. Now she's even reluctant to borrow a game from me being worried about "debt".

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I’m alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand
I’ll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite

So I found out the meaning of these words when I read about Kryptonite on Wikipedia. He's asking, I'm pretty sure he's asking a her, whether she'd stay by his side through thick and thin, through dark and light. I could compare it to wedding vows. Saying they'll stay together through sickness and health blah blah blah. Then he makes an oath to keep her safe. I say a her because of the last line "kryptonite". He's calling her his weakness, the crack in his wall. The one person that he'd do anything for. No need to explain how I can relate to this. Blue's my kryptonite, nuff said. And I wish she'd stay by my side on both terms. But at this point I scared her from doing either. That's never going to go back to where she's my close friend in both situations though. Atleast if I still am so dependent on her. I think if I just lost internet for a week and then just stopped talking to her after that things would ease back where I can talk and be social with her again after that period. But it's not going to happen, nor work, because when I'm not talking to her, I'm going to be stuck thinking of her. I'd be sad probably, maybe happy if I remember something happy, but it's not going to come anytime soon. But to continue why I thought this tied into Superman. There is one point, atleast in the DCAU continuity, where he gets controlled by Darksied and goes on a rampage.

You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

Now I'm not about to say that Blue needs me more than she thinks. Hell no, she's like a drug for me but I'm like the dirt beneath her shoes. Blue's had her moments where she bags on me though, not many but still there. But, I'm always going to be there for her, no matter what. She may take me for granted at points though, and I've pulled some stupid shit that may have said I'm not always going to be here. Like for instance, one time I was playing Dota and she started talking to me and I just told her I'm in a Dota game and can't talk. What if it was important? In the last four lines it'd be more like her talking to me than me talking to her. I was depressed as fuck when I started talking to her more and I wasn't thinking it'd help. I just felt like she would be a confidant, turns out she was more than that. I owe her a lot, cause if she hadn't turned out to be what I got I may not be here today. As I said, I was depressed as fuck. I would do stuff intentionally to put myself in harms way under the guise of it being fun. It was fun, but it was dangerous too. She changed that. She helped me through my hard times.