Sigh, The Despair

I've sadly had to go two days without talking to Blue. Technically it's three cause I only talked to her for about five minutes on Saturday, then she went offline to me. Today in school I did my usual, I smiled at her as she walked into the cafeteria, but she didn't even send me a wave. God I sound so damn clingy and possessive of her. But it's where you know something's wrong when her body language is different. Even worse, she went offline to me. I'm only reiterating that because you probably thought that to mean she got off of facebook. No, just to me. I found out because I was at a friend's house and it said she was online when it didn't on my computer. as I said, the despair. My day just doesn't feel right when I haven't talked to her. Heh, when I talk to her everything seems nicer. I'm more welcoming to everything and even more, good things happen. When I'm happy, which has become dependent on my interaction with her, good things happen. But when I'm sad, which has become a daily mood, bad things happen. For example yesterday I was too distracted with Dota and my Win Streak to notice until around ten that she hadn't been online all day. But then today I broke my Win Streak. A SEVEN GAME WIN STREAK. Even more, the game that I lost it was with 4 other experienced players and using a character I have a lot of experience with. That just screams how bad it is, and how weak my ability to focus when in despair is. She even has decided she'd ignore my messages to her. I sent her a picture about blueberries, and asked her about an update. But nothing. Again, I sound like a fucking possessive creep when she's just my friend. Not in my eyes but in reality.