Why Do I Feel This Way?

I've honestly forgotten why I love Blue. I mean there's the obvious stuff, like the fact that she's one of the most beautiful girls I'll ever see who's developed a pretty nice body. But the only thing I really remember of her is that she's creative. We haven't had our long talking conversations in such a long time where we're laughing and talking, I just don't know why I still pursue her. I guess they're just residual feelings from when I did know her so well. Now I don't know crap about her. I've even forgotten how to make her laugh. Yesterday I was at Busch Gardens and was walking around with a stuffed wiener dog and poked a milf. I told her about it and I thought it'd make her laugh, I honestly did. She's just like, meh whatever. I mean I can make her laugh with fat jokes, but it's been so long since I've talked to her I can't remember why she was so special to me. Then when I try to rekindle that friendship, I honestly don't know what the hell to say. I can't rekindle our friendship because my attraction gets in the way. But I think at this point it's become just residual feelings from memories of when we were close, and how attractive she is now.