Do We Control Our Own Reality?

Fapless for 2 days straight. The subject's mental health is slowly deteriorating as his hormones build up but no wet dreams are had.
I'm just going to have an update until I actually manage to stay hard for more than a minute.

So you know the saying "I think therefore I am"? Well I find this saying to be quite valid and it can relate to metaphysics. In metaphysics or spirit science I commonly confuse the two because they're very similar your size and mental capacity to learn is based off of your level of consciousness. At a higher level of consciousness you will be taller, bigger, etc etc. This also affects your ability to tamper with reality. People that would go on to be considered gods or prophets were just more conscious of what reality was, more enlightened. This would give them the ability to alter the reality around them and appear to be of a higher power. The concept is at a certain point whatever you think becomes reality. Everyone can do this but to a different extent. The placebo effect is based off of this. You take a sugar pill and think it will help you therefore you do. Something like smoking tea but being told it's marijuana you should still get high from it because you'll expect to get high. Now, unless you have gotten high before you'd end up feeling what you expect to feel when you're high. You think, therefore you are. You think you're high, so you're high. This type of mindset is applied to gods by them just thinking of lets say the pyramids. Next thing they know, there's a pyramid there. It all gets down to good, hard, concrete theory though. There's nothing proven to show that you actually con conjure something out of thin air just because you thought of it. Right now though I'm on a total spiritual journey, I've started meditating daily. It really helps me to sort out my head and hopefully it'll allow to me fap again. But I just need to learn who I am before I can reach a higher level of consciousness. I have a lot of work ahead of myself before I can achieve this goal. It's going to be easier at this point though. With a haze where all I do is daydream I can easily meditate. Not doing work I guess can have a benefit to it.