Why Do I Have To Be Bi-Polar

Today was comparably pleasant to me. I've been ultra friendzoned by a girl though but I don't care. I think I fell in love for the third time. The first time it took me 2 months to admit it. The second time it took me 6 months. This time it took me 2 weeks. I found the one major similarity is that they have a dark side and air that surrounds them. But I did all my depressing, tear implicating, thoughts during school I just stopped caring about school and only go to please others. Only do work to please others. I couldn't give two shits. Only bright side to me is that I have art and gym and see friends. If it weren't for there I wouldn't be motivated that much to go. But now I just sleep in most of my classes, live a night life. My classes have become the time that I have deep thoughts about love and shit. I still do fine, I absorb everything that is relevant to the class. If I don't I can just ask my friends what I missed. But today when I came home I didn't have my depressing alone time. I took a nap and just talked. I mean I started just staying up to talk to the new girl I like. It literally moved from me having deep conversations with Blue, to me having deep conversations with the first girl I decided I loved, then to me having deep conversations with her. But I managed to mix in a lot more comedy with her than the other two. I think it's a sign of being comfortable around her.