Who Are You?

So I was talking to Blue and it was about girls..I think. Well it was about rating. I said that honestly I've never been able to rate someone somewhere between 2-4. Really I barely rate a 5 either, I gave her that but it's because she was saying she was a 3. And I like her so I don't want to overdo shit. Really I think she's more like a 6. So I said 5 or 6. But there's a reason why I don't normally do 2-5. It's because I can't notice the wrong in someone, nor the ugly in them. I can see if they're fat. But I just got a naive haze over my eyes that prevents me from finding problems with people. I think I just don't want to judge people. I just want to see them for them. It gives me a reason why 1 is still in there. I can notice the really obvious stuff. But there was one girl that I was always told was a butterface but I never noticed she was ugly until she was at school after being sick and just looked horrible. I honestly think that a girl that wears a lot of makeup is ugly. Embrace how you look naturally, being fake is accepted in this society to too far of an extent. It just sickens me when a girl can't enjoy her body for what it is. But then Blue mentions the Love Guru which has some guru that doesn't see people physically but personality wise. A beautiful person is beautiful because they're personality appeals to them. I think that's actually the way it works with me sometimes. I do know for a fact though that I'm really blind when it comes to a girl I like and realizing she has some facial problem. I had a crush on one girl once and didn't realize she looked like a guy. I still don't think it that much, her personality wasn't that bad either. The girl was just stupid, and a Directioner. But I didn't realize she was stupid until after I had a thing for her and lost that thing. I don't like seeing people as some object for sex, it's just wrong. Like literally I have girls I could date, probably fuck too. I just don't want to. I want to find a girl that I like. Even when I find one that likes me back I'm not going to try to screw her. I'd much prefer to just have her over to hold in my arms and love. Of course kiss her though, no tongue. I want someone to hold in my arms more than someone to get my dick wet.