Blacked Out

So I'm notorious for sleeping in class, but it's starting to change. Normally I slowly slip into my nighty night mode where I'm conscious and it slowly fades without me fighting it when it's in class. Now it's more of I knock out without the waking up sweating my ass off. I'll just have my head down, listening in class, I close my eyes and open them to someone telling me to wakeup. I don't even remember what was going on prior to my blackout. This is really bad for me because sleeping in Driver's Ed counts against me, seeing as I need a certain amount of hours in class. The thing is I value sleeping to a degree most people don't. It's not just because I don't get sleep at a regular pace as most, some days sleeping barely four hours while others almost the whole day, but because sleeping means dreaming. The most valuable thing to me besides camaraderie is expanding my mind. There's nothing better for expanding your mind than introspection into yourself. Now the best way to do that is meditate, because meditation promotes the development of images in your mind and a deeper level of thought. Now for me sleeping is like meditation. I have a deeper level of thought and dreams teach you a lot about yourself and your thoughts. There's what Plato preached saying that the better you understand yourself the better you understand others and I find that pretty accurate. It's part of why I changed the blog to "Delving Into A Shattered Psyche". Because that's literally what I've been doing the whole time. Speculating about the reality I've been forced to live in and my views on it. Then of course there's the moanings and rants about other random crap, but I actually have a good understanding of psychology. The most insane person will actually understand him/herself pretty well. My other major reason for sleeping is because it's the best escape I can find and when I wake up, I feel good. I have a smile on. I guess you could say I've developed an addiction to sleeping and whatever chemicals your brain produces while in that state. Probably melatonin. I'd say that my sleep habits aren't healthy though, but since when have I cared about that. I prefer to learn more about myself. It may even expand my lifespan by allowing my body to not have to work as much. I doubt that though. I do also try to control myself when it comes to my sleep habits, as in not be asleep in class. But I tend to be sleepy all the time now, so when I try to work I may screw up. I have the habit of saying the wrong thing or filling in the wrong bubble and other things of the sort, the sleepier I am. Despite that I actually have a clearer thought process and tend to be more on game all time. By more on game, I mean I tend to have better recall, not short term but long term. I prefer to be in my state of half asleepness mostly because then I can better think on what crosses my mind. I've reached such a masterful ability with sleeping that I can get rest by closing my eyes, I don't actually have to drift off most of the time. Just close my eyes and think, I feel less tired as it happens unless I'm really worn out.