Saturday, September 14, 2013

I'm Blank Fuckin BLANK

So I go by many names. Besides the one I originally used on here, "CaucasianAzn", I have others. My preferred one for awhile was MistoDisapea because I used that for gloving. Same with Fuckboi. Most of that was just because it sounded chill and to do with gloving. My Dota name went through many changes, some of my best were "The Brigadier Porker", "The Tingle Master", and "The Designated Drinker". My newest one is "The Chocolate Menace" because I was prank calling and made some racial slurs then the name hit me. But to the core of this post, my usual explanation for my odd habits are because I'm *First Name* FUCKING * LAST NAME*. That's just because it's the easiest and least complicated explanation there is. In class I had to write about my goals for the school year and five years and when I said I had no goals, didn't aspire to do anything, the teacher was just like. Bullshit, you have to want to do something. I didn't even have to answer, one of my friends chimes in with it's cause he's *First Name*. As I go on I'll just say, I have my enemies. Only thing is, they never stay enemies. I grow on people. I'm not saying everybody eventually loves me, that'd be impossible, but I just have that charisma about me that gets them to warm up to me. If they don't though, that's not my problem. I'm not trying to be some egotistical shit but I'm serious when I say I can take people places. I just have my effect on people, but everyone has an effect on people. They also know that it takes a lot to deter me from them. I can try to fix things for years and still go at it like I just started. But back to the weirdness and unusality that is me, and yes I consider my charisma a rare charm, there's also my memory. Now I've occasionally talked about how it's been fading, but that's short term. I have a memory that can astonish most just because I don't forget. I'm like an elephant in how much I don't forget. I just have the habit of remembering every detail I can about a person. School's different, that stuff has to interest me, but with people they instantly interest me. Even though I find psychology is an area of expertise reserved for psychopaths and wack jobs, I would fit perfectly into it. Yes, I admit it, I'm a wack job at the social standard. But that's how I've been from day one. Like I got placed in a psych class and I was doing the work and all I could think was, I already knew this. I already delved into the insanity that is my mind and learned the basics of psychology. Next one on the list is my bastard luck. I've talked about this a lot on here and that's because of how accurate it is. I do something that most people would walk away from with something broken and I get a scrape. Shit, my favorite day of the year is Friday the Thirteenth because for some reason it's my best day of the year. Of course I can't abuse it, that's wrong. To try to take advantage of what you can't control only can end badly. Now I pretty much forgot about what I was going to write about at this point. My initial intention was to write about my charisma I so deeply value, but I lost my train of thought when I started writing. I'm just saying, the best and probably only explanation for why I act as I do is cause I'm me. That applies to everyone honestly. But if you ask me, compared to the social average I'm miles away.

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