You Don't Turn Your Back

I probably seem cheesy with how a lot of my ideals and morals that I've developed over the years are thoroughly in movies, T.V. shows, and anime. Of course that's not where I get them. I do however find an idea to write about from them, I guess you'd call them my occasional inspiration. I kinda ended up thinking about writing this while watching Fast and Furious 6. Well just to say it now, there's a few words I don't throw around as often as some. There was a point when I did, but that's an on and off type of mindset. They're words of affection that are general but have a meaning. Words like Brother and Sister and Love. Some people don't realize it but these are strong words. Me calling someone my brother or sister or telling them I love them is me making a promise. A promise that I'm always going to be there when they need me, and not going to turn my back. To hurt one of them is like hurting me except I'm going to bite whoever did it's head off. That's something that just disgusts me. When someone just turns their back on another person, not even one that they were as close to use those words with them, but even an acquaintance. If there's one thing I have a severe loyalty to is family. I don't mean just direct, I mean the big whole bunch. Even though I utterly hate my parents at times, I'm still there. I don't leave. I'd be the type of guy that if he had a kid with a woman, hopefully a woman, that I utterly hated I wouldn't leave until he did. If I had to? Well that kid's staying with me. Like what Will Smith did in Pursuit of Happiness. And as I've said on here multiple times that's what hurt the most a few months ago. I could handle being treated like shit, shunned away, as long as they came back. But she didn't. Honestly I don't know if when she's going to come around. I talked to her because I ended up sitting next to her in English, and she said exactly what I feel, shit's going to be awkward for a long time. I just have that moment where I look over about to say something but just tell myself, no that's stupid. I lost my comedic spark again. But back to the main topic. Turning your back on family is what scum does. That's something you have to be able to respect. I say I don't care about the past, but that's not fully true. I don't care about someone's past before they met me, because I didn't know them then. But I tend to remember every little detail, it's a specialty of mine. I guess it's because "family" is one of the few things I have. Ironic thing is I don't like to spend time with legit family. I prefer chilling with friends rather than going to some family gathering. I don't see that family a lot. I see the family I built myself. I'm like Whitebeard in One Piece. All he ever does is try to extend his family, and he'd take a bullet for one of them or forgive what they did wrong. Because as I said before, You Don't Turn Your Back.