So yea. Hate my life right now. It shouldn't be as odd as it sounds but it's true. I do love life, enjoy living and all, and wouldn't dare do anything that directly endangers it but sometimes it just feels like living is hard work. Recently I've been having serious girl troubles, and the girl I love has been ignoring me recently. I don't know what I did either, I asked if I did and asked if it was some of the stuff my friends were saying it'd be and she just went no. Now onto another reason for me to be hating my life. My dad. Yes my stupid retarded dumbass of a dad. He just honestly pisses me off in almost everything he does. And he does some really stupid stuff. At this point I think I broke him and he's trying to come to terms with realizing my opinion of him isn't a good one. He would just mope around and looks sad and like a little puppy that's just been kicked. And then there's that high school's just started. It's not that bad but I'm getting to feeling lonely when I'm just sitting there in class with nothing to do and no one to talk to. Like I got friends in each of my classes but sometimes we just don't talk. I'm left there sitting staring off into nothingness and drowning in an infinite sea of boredom. But what leaves me sad a lot is that I've gotten desperate. I don't get desperate. In the worst situation I don't normally care. But I've gotten into desperation. I'm asking friends, and mind that they're friends that don't have girlfriends themselves, to look for me. It's just sad. Well it's going to eventually turn up. I am getting some nice stuff for my birthday.
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