Patient Enough For You?

So right now I got lots of stuff to wait for. Besides my birthday there's also all the stuff I ordered for it. But I'm also waiting on Borderlands 2 to come out. Seeing as I loved Borderlands I know I'm going to love Borderlands 2. But then I got my punching bag and bike that's coming in a week. Also all the raver ware that I ordered from Emazing Lights which will probably be 2 weeks from now. But I've never been patient. Patience is a virtue that I don't have. I can barely wait a minute for someone to respond back to me and get annoyed if it says they're online and see it. And now I got a serious thing to wait for that has me really worried. I don't know why but I told a girl I love her. The one I've been pursuing. And I don't think I've said it to her before and about 3 months ago she hated me. Now I'm all buddy buddy with her though, but still. I mean I wanted to ask her out to homecoming and turn anyone that asked me, which I know would be none, down. Now I guess there's no point. I guess I was lucky enough to talk to her normally for 3 months without her telling me off for stuff or getting mad at me. But back to being patient. It kills me. I have to move around and find something to do to keep my mind off of whatever I'm waiting for. And right now I'm waiting for so much stuff it's getting annoying. Like I can handle myself and be patient, but it kills me. I've had to be patient with the mentally challenged. But the thing with the girl I like is some serious waiting. Cause about 5 of my friends, closer friends that normally rip on me in a playful way, think she likes me. I think she likes me. But I could just be getting pity. And if she does I'm waiting with good reason. She may just not want to tell me she likes me even though I've told her I like her time and time again. I practically remind her. She may just be scared to. This isn't my ego talking. I make jokes about girls shying away from me, it's impossible to be my ego talking. But I just hate waiting. It makes me sad sometimes, especially in these situations, and I just sit there not wanting to do anything. Not wanting to workout either. Fuck I haven't worked out for 3 days I should really get on that but haven't. Oh well.