Fuck this world, fuck this life. Fuck the fuck that made the knife.
Fuck the things that made me smile but left me sitting in denial.
My life is done my life is burned. My love is gone never to return.
I'll never be the same again, I'll be this shell til' the end.
Without Blue my world is gone, life with no meaning is a life that's wrong.
What reason to live in this hateful world, happiness is lost when you love a girl.
But she doesn't love you back, may not even care. She just says that she does so that you're still here.
So that you're not dead hanging from a fan. Not keeling over from popping a grand.
Not slitting your wrists and bleeding all over. Not shot through the head no lucky clover.
No light at the end of the tunnel for me, just a life to live in misery
To wallow in self-pity and hate, it's me that's destined for this fucked up fate
So before my heart bursts from my chest, I'll try to finish off the rest
Before I beat out my last beat, I'll never admit my defeat
I'll keep going even without her, even though my world will burn
As my eyes close tonight, I'll give in to death without a fight
Sadly I wakeup the next morning, I take on the day groaning and moaning
I smile with my friends even though there's a terror inside, with everything broken there's no place to hide
I'll just go find some wreckage to hide while I cry, I'll spend the whole day wishing that I'd die
Go to sleep and feel the whole cycle, all because of my love for Michael
My life it's a wreck that I built to a house, and as I walk I feel like a mouse
Dwarfed by the world around me, but in the end you will see
This pain won't pay off, I'll still hate the world, and I'll still be broken over a girl
But I live with it and try to look up, cause down's not where I get my luck
Making the best will be my life, I just need to drop the knife
To get things clear Michael is Blue and I used her name cause she's used mine on her blog so I figured she wouldn't care. As for the four things that mean suicide, yes I have access to all of those except a gun. No, I'm not going to do them anytime soon. The rest I'll leave up to your interpretation. It's not that I'm getting lazy but I decided that explaining what it is that I write is senile because opinions will differ. Last thing though, I have no confirmation of her not caring anymore. I'd been listening to Three Days Grace especially "Let it Die" which is talking about him not caring anymore. He didn't try to preserve their relationship because it didn't mean anything to him anymore. I've convinced myself that that's Blue's view on me. That I'm not worth anything. She'll only say that she cares so that I don't go crazy and slice something. But my life is empty without her, to love a girl that doesn't love you back is an unbearable pain.
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