There are 3 things that I happen to put pride in nonstop; my brain, my brawn, and my dumb luck. Now I'm only okay with putting pride in my brain and brawn because those are more dependable than dumbluck. And this topic was brought up by one of the conversations I had with Blue that led to whether I was arrogant or not when it came to my dumbluck or something along those lines. And I'd have to say it's not all that to be proud of, but I am. My brain is something I could sit here and brag about all day, but I prefer not to because it shows a darker side of me. But I don't exactly act cocky cause of it. I just have lots of trust in what my first impression of things are, even the answer to a test. It causes me not to look over my answers, but I do think back on something if I have a feeling I'm wrong. But there's other things I'm willing to put pride in, but it's not something that'll always be there. For example, if I were to get a girlfriend out of any of the girls that I happen to have some feelings for in that way I would unintentionally brag about her nonstop until my friends have to shout at me to shut the fuck up. But there's a sense of accomplishment I have with lots of things, most of the time which I try to keep from building my pride. I find pride needed but overused too much. But if I make someone shut up because I talked to the point that they realize they're wrong, I can't help but beam for 5 seconds. And if there's one thing that will always give me pride it's bringing a smile to someone's face. I mean I love to laugh, and I try my hardest to entertain, and when I know my efforts payed off for someone that's not me it makes me happy. But pride is probably one of the more major of the seven deadly sins for a reason. Because if you are too prideful you are normally less liked, and can get some serious inferiority/superiority complex. And it puts you more at risk. Like seriously, I'm way too cocky with my bastardly luck that I willingly throw myself into risky situations. My brain never gets the better of me, but my confidence in my muscles are something else. I mean there's one guy that I know could definitely kick my ass unless maybe if I were pissed off. But other people I'll go headstrong. The only reason I know that the guy can kick my ass is cause he's got a strong chokehold. I go headstrong with others just cause they simply can't manage to phase me when they hit me. Besides the physical abuse I have suffered from one of my friends it'll never compare to the emotional pain I've suffered through. But I do have a substantial amount of strength which paired with me practicing punching results in me being something to be reckoned with. But I am going to refuse to fight, unless pushed to it. My pride will probably be my downfall, but there's always the chance my downfall will just be when I finally get a girl I fall for and it turns out she's using me or something. Even though that's already happened once, it was with a girl I never met in real life. Once that happens, I know I'll do something stupid.
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