What Social Life?

I can never say I have a legit social life. I've never had a taste of being popular, not even been used under the guise that I'm "popular". Like I know people, but I'm totally off radar of people. But I do hang with friends a lot, but it's always the same ones. Not that there's a problem with that, but it gets dull after like the 50th time that you've hung out with them. And I got lot's of people I casually call friends when in reality they're just acquaintances. I consider calling them a friend as a form of intimacy (not in a gay way) because to me it means you can trust them with private stuff and to accept you as you are. I mean you can tell them the most disgusting thing about you and they won't give a fuck. And they don't judge you. Anyone I can just get along with is an acquaintance. But I have quite a few friends. Only one of which I made at my private school and most of them I made in 7th and 8th grade. That's purely because those are the years where you actually end up discovering yourself. And although people may beg to differ (none of my friends approve of my affection for a certain girl I can say I love) I am a great judge of character. I can read people like a book when it comes to knowing how they're going to act and I don't even know how. But my social life has never flourished. I mean I'm a likable guy but I don't do stuff for a whole bunch of attention. Most of the "popular" kids are just attention whores that are popular in their own minds. I mean if I wanted to, I think I could become popular. I just know that Blue and maybe Chentos (haven't mentioned him in a while) are just laughing their asses off right now reading this. But I mean all I really see a popular kid as someone that everyone likes and that makes people laugh a lot and has some level of being attractive. Now I need to work on the everyone liking me (I've suffered a couple fiascoes brought on by one of my stupid terrorist friends and another spiteful one) but I happen to be quite a funny asswipe. And my ugly ass face isn't fixable but 2/3 is always good. Of course I got a 50% success rate when it comes to my jokes, I say about half of them out loud where they sound good in my head but suck in real life. But I keep my jokes to the privacy of friends, I wouldn't give 2 fucks if I got embarrassed for making a shitty joke. I consider the people that display jokes to people, yes display, by shouting them out in class as attention whores. Now of course I used to do that but I just say it out loud because the person is across the room. I used to do this one thing where I'd purposely fall out of my chair to make people laugh, which I personally think of being an attention whore. But that was in 6th grade and for only a week. Most of the times that my classes laughed at me in 7th and 8th grade was because I always goof off during presentations and try to make the project as funny as possible. I mean I had to create a business with Chentos and I wanted to open up Chinky's Tacos. We settled on a cool idea for a car but the path to getting there had a lot of racism in it. The other times were normally when I got annoyed with someone and started chasing him around the classroom, I had a large classroom, or the playful beating the shit out of each other Chentos and I dish out to each other. I mean like seriously, I have had to suffer many things because of goofing off. I've gotten my balls slammed with an xbox controller once, and they were sore for a couple of days. But I do have a social life online. It's not because talking to strangers makes it easier to open up cause a lot of the time I connect with that person outside of where I met them, but because it's easier for me to find a kindred spirit online. I think I can still read the person's character without looking at a picture of them though, just by talking to them is fine. But online, people that know me think of me as some caring cute boy that claims to be musclebound even after they've seen my pics. And I made 2 friends this summer, one in Aza and one in Nightshade. Which is impressive to me because I don't normally get close to people easy. But when I find a kindred spirit, or someone I feel for. I will willingly spill guts without even being asked to.

And I'm not an attention whore, even though I got a blog. I don't advertise mine that much, neither did Blue, and more needed somewhere to vent. If Blue or I were attention whores we'd have posted whenever we made a new post in this one facebook group we're in like what one kid did.