I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby, it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
Now obviously he's not actually at a payphone. I've been trying to figure out what it represents but the second line is possibly a double entendre. With the obvious reference to a payphone, I believe he's also saying he changed for her. My idea of what the payphone could be is him trying to change back to how things used to be, so that it'd feel like home again. The next two lines are quite obvious, no real interpretation needed. But for the moronic or slow types, not intended to bash on you guys, Adam's saying things aren't what they used to be anymore. They were gonna be "together forever" but that idea's as unrealistic as pigs flying. Just think about the pigs, they'd break any wings they got trying to flap their fatasses off the ground. Now if it's not obvious, this is a bit of the epitome of how I feel. I just kept trying to bring things back to normal and how they used to be. I went so far as to change for her. Now it's not good to change for anyone except yourself, and that's an idea I've stood by. But by changing for her, I was changing for myself. I was trying to make sure the mistakes I made before wouldn't be made again. They weren't either, just other things happened. I just spent too much time dwelling in the past though. She and I didn't exactly have plans made for us to be together. But there were plans we made together. I remember last year I told her once I had a job I'd be getting her fancy smancy birthday and Christmas presents. Like legit katanas or videogames. But all that's impossible now.
Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.
Of course he's saying that they've both changed a lot. He had so many aspirations that she was always gonna be there, but now she's not. Again, I feels this. I can't tell you how many times I've thought back to my memories of her. Some of the are blurred, I'll make that definite, but some of them are blatantly clear. It's the older memories that I remember so well. The more recent ones, well she and I never made much worth remembering. That's just what happened. She gave up on me. I never thought she'd go though. I'm a master optimist, always hoping for the best. If the DC universe were real I'd already be a Blue Lantern. I always thought things would fix themselves. So when they didn't, well you guys read, I fell apart. It kinda ties into a thought I had before. What is actual suicide. There's more than just physical. There's metaphorical. I remember I talked to her about it too. I was saying how much I needed her in my life, this was before we were drifting apart, and how I probably wouldn't stand living without her. How if I were to scare her away it'd be metaphorical suicide because I'd just be a body with a mind that gave up. I guess you could say she metaphorically murdered me by leaving me behind.
You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
See there's his final plea. He's asking her not to give up and to try to make it work. But maybe they did do that and now that she left him he feels the time he invested into it wasn't worth it. And in that time he spent it just got more hopeless and pointless. See I tried harder the more I realized she gave up. That didn't work out too well though. I would never say that I wasted my time though. Even though it had no payoff, it was lovely working for it. I still had some moments with her. Like back when she had a boyfriend, I was talking to her and she had a root beer float. She was a little depressive so I was trying to cheer her up. I start listing all the nice things she has in life; her boyfriend, her looks, etc etc. When I ran out of things I ended it with "BUT MOST OF ALL, YOU HAVE A ROOT BEER FLOAT". She liked that, and it pleased me that she did. I don't see all the bridges burned either. Maybe it's my optimism, or maybe it's just a delusion. But there's always a chance. That's part of the allure of never knowing.
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed.
Still stuck in that time
When we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise
Of course he's going to feel like he wasted his life with her. He's gonna feel spiteful cause she just left. Her turning out the lights is literally that, giving up. Once the lights are out, you can't see where you're going. But cause he's paralyzed, he can't really go anywhere. He's just stuck in the past, like me. I don't remember if she ever used to say I love you back whenever I said it with my goodbye, but I know she did used to love me. The last line is just what I always carried in the back of my head, all good things come to an end, sadly.
If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit
One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
If what he hoped for happened, things would never have gone bad. But a happy ending doesn't exist, not in the real world. The last line though, it's really strong. It's ironic of course, this song is a love song in itself. I've found there to be two different types, the ones about someone leaving, and the ones about how much the writer enjoys their special someone being there. He's sick of love songs though because all they serve to do is taunt him. Remind him of what he used to have, what's gone now. I can't express how much I like this part. Even though I've never gotten to hold her ever, my happy ever after is that. Just me and her falling asleep together every night. I wouldn't care if I were a virgin for the rest of my life, or had to live on the streets if that happened. I'd be happy just to have her in my arms.
Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.
All good memories eventually fade when there aren't newer ones to remind you of the old ones. Adam's special someone didn't care about what could happen, and didn't remember whatever was so special in the first place. He loved her, thinking she returned the feeling, but no she didn't. The last part strikes me to him saying she liked someone else and not him. Not gonna express how I relate to that interpretation, because it's blatantly obvious.
You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before
But all of our bridges burned down.
This part is blatantly obvious. Same with why I relate. But that's what happens when people drift apart but one didn't want that to happen.
Man, fuck that shit
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button
Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my shirt,
You can tell it I'm ballin.
Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
That little piece of shit with you.
So this is Wiz's part. He's expressing the other side you feel. While Adam is the side of thought saying I wish she'd come back. Wiz is the side saying who the fuck needs her. I don't feel like totally interpreting the whole entire thing though. So I'll just leave after that.
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