Best Of Me

So I tend to find a lot of the songs I write about here by waking up and the song playing in my head, or I'm in the car listening to an album then I just start latching onto the words. This song is by Sum 41 on their album Underclass Hero. This is like how I felt when I was trying hard as fuck to fix things with her. I wasn't ready to let go then, and sad to say I'm not ready to let go now. But this mindset that's in the song, saying if he can just restart everything, that's not going to work. People don't forget, trust me I know. And sometimes the harder you try to fix things the worse it gets. When I look back, I really didn't lie to her, only time I can recall is when I asked her for Skyrim saying my brother wanted it, when really I just wanted an excuse to talk to her.

It's so hard to say that I'm sorry
I'll make everything alright
All these things that I've done
Now what have I become, and where'd I go wrong?
I don't mean to hurt, just to put you first
I won't tell you lies (I'm sorry)
I will stand accused 
With my hand on my heart
I'm just trying to say

So it's pretty blatant. He's saying he's done a lot of wrong things and he wants to try to fix things now.What he's done has changed him so he doesn't even know who he is anymore. He doesn't know when he screwed up, he just knows he did. The times that he did something for her, he didn't mean to feel pain while going through it. He's being sincere when he says sorry, despite what she may think. He means what he says. He's trying his best to say sorry.

I'm sorry
It's all that I can say
You mean so much
And I'd fix all that I've done
If I could start again
I'd throw it all away
To the shadows of regrets
And you would have the best of me

There's never a better way to say sorry, than to just say I'm sorry. Of course you can always add on to it, but at the base you're just saying how sorry you are. She's too special to him to just let go away and he's willing to change himself for her, to change everything to make her want him in her life again. Leave nothing behind to regret, and the only thing that'd be left is what she'd consider the best of him.

I know that I can't take 
back all of the mistakes
But I will try
Although it's not easy
I know you believe me
Cause I would not lie
Don't believe their lies
Told through jealous eyes
They don't understand (I'm sorry)
I won't break your heart
I won't bring you down
But I will have to say

He wants to fix things as much as he can, he's not going to give up but keep going. Of course it's not going to be hard, but someone believing in you is a really powerful thing to have. He then keeps reiterating how much he means what he's saying, how he's being sincere in the purest form. Other people may want to sway her away for themselves, but don't listen to them. He's not here to cause hurt, he's not here to hold her back, he just wants to fix things.


Now you guys kinda see why I picked this song