Halfway Man

I personally consider myself a jack of all trades. Not a true one though, no I'm not an expert at everything I do. I just have a knack to get a good handle of everything I do, but I can never do it all the way. It's like being able to write, but not being able to make a plot. Some of it is I just lose interest in what I'm doing, other times I just can't get a better handle on it. Take gloving, okay so I'm above amateur with it. I know the concept and what things are, I've always been the brain freak with everything I do, and when I glove I can blow cause a brain melt. But I can't take it much past that. I watch gloving videos pretty often but I can't get down what the hell they're doing. There's the stuff that I know what they're doing, so I try it right? Well my hands just don't bend like that. Not every situation is I know it on paper but don't have the skill to carry it out. I just always have half of what I need to get done. Like, I can write, oh boy I can write. My specialty is long stories that are in first person because I'm better at talking as if I'm part of the story. But I try to sit down and write a book, or even a short story, I have an idea of what to write, it just can't happen. Plot development isn't my specialty. I remember I tried writing one before and I just kept throwing new characters in every chapter and made it sound like they were important, then just making them disappear from the plot. Or when I write lyrics. I can get rhyming down and an okay flow to it, but using sound devices and other literary terms is a small problem for me. I have to feel in the zone to do it. I listen to rappers like Eminem and G Eazy or even Hollywood Undead and can't fathom how they think of all the ways to work their metaphors, puns, allusions, similes, paradoxes, oxymorons, alliteration,  etc etc in. G Eazy would just throw them out. In "Runaround Sue" there's a line where he says " I can't believe I fell for your bull, Chicago" no tie in nothing, just thrown out there to finish the line. He tends to do that a lot, using irrelevance to tie the lines together. That sounds like an oxymoron, I know, but by tie the lines together I mean keep with the flow and rhyme pattern, not make them all make sense together. The lines of blather that I am proud of do incorporate more of the devices though. Another thing that I like is what Hopsin did in "Sag My Pants" where he spins off a line of long words that rhyme. "I'm just a idiotic, ironic, symbolic, illuminatic, product that's going to be killed if I talk about it." In academics I don't suffer that much though. Math is only one part so I there's no half to be missing on. Science the half that I don't do well with, memorizing formulas and stuff of the like, normally gets given to me. English I don't remember what goes on in there, but I'm genuinely interested in anything but reading books about Jews so I'm fine there. History and geography is just memorizing trivia, which I could do. I'm pretty sure I could go on jeopardy if I bothered to read the trivia before the game.